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I'm not very nice.

I feel like, as a small child, I was given a bottle of poison to take every day as though it were medicine. The poison seems to affect some people in a completely different way to me, either making them more optimal or at least negating some of their bad qualities. However, I had allergies. It caused me depression and psychosis and many fractures within the many compartments of my mind. After years of taking this substance, I decided to detox and remove it from my system. I find that it has done lasting damage, though. I regularly meet people who still take that stuff every day and get annoyed with me when I say anything bad about their medicine. I've decided to not say anything bad about the medicine, because hey, everyone reacts differently. I still feel like a bad person for not being able to take the medicine, though. Which is silly of me.

nothing will get better. I dont see why i bother with it anymore. im not going to live like this

just be like the rest and dont bother

i can't be bothered with anyone or anything anymore. i've had enough of it all
any any any

*Big hugs to OneStepBeyond*

I hate it when someone acts a certain way, you can see that person in them and you know it's coming, so you aren't surprised. But part of you kind of wishes they really weren't such a prick.

This is so true Hale_Bopp

I've been having one really long panic attack that never ends

deleted. posting on here just makes me more anxious, what am i doing.

I want to succeed in culinary school but it seems that I lack common sense.
I ask people so many questions and people think that I am slow.
The eye contact has been difficult lately because I am nervous. I am thinking about coming out of the aspie closet but I am afraid of ridicule.

I feel bad about complaining on this forum so much. I am afraid that it will isolate me even more.
I just want someone to like me and I am even a bit desperate. I just wanted to fit in here but I screwed that up.

why do i bother. its obvious nothing is gonna work or me. Should just quit already

I hate college soooooooooooooooooooooo much

I get a couple things done and them am exhausted and blank. But I still have all these pictures in my head.

hahahahaahaa oh im going f*****g crazy.