I really am a cripple, you know.

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Ezra has covered the rest so I will reply to these statements

Okay, some of you are just UTTERLY DETERMINED that I be argued into a closet and the door locked behind me . " It's for my own good " of course .

I personally don't care what you chose to do. It's your life. I am just commenting on the situations being presented.

...And, before I sign off, for still another reason - the area had aot of almond/walnut far.i v, in quite dry air - a f a native said to me that, with my COPD, the xuspolle. produced by the nut fat In might make it not too good for me, health-wise. A native!
Now, all this ' you are an uncooperative lagienfy, so you deserve to have your money dribbled away on $25 1.4 mile shopping trips and then you can go wait to die ' could make want to - have someast pleasures and, maybe not kill myself, but allow myself to die after some last pleasures, there will never any thing better, just turn your face to Patterson and beg to get back in ... That's not my plan, I don't want to die : But if I did I have a .and shift will in my pocket leaving the bit of money I could, soon, obtain ; enough that he could even dispose of my carcass and gave some cash for himself - I'd like , though I have an option to be I texted in the 4th anxazt space of the stone in a churchyard in NYS that my mother, father, and Bruh all occupy...That because my father never rectified his threatening Mr committing Mr if I talked about the rape, ever ?And I doubt that my mother would've been much different if I tried that with het - Sin e I never got to cry in blood's arms I do 't want to be interred with tbem . I don't hate them but I don't want them to bodily be with for hypothetical forever because of that .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I can see that you feel bad tonight and I truly do feel for you, no one deserves to feel like you do currently.

$25 isn't what the uber/taxi service for Patterson charges. It is however what a professional caregiver is likely to charge.

Seems to me being homeless is more hazardous to health than nut trees. When it comes to my own respiratory problems, the concern was leaving the dry air of Nevada for the moist/damp air of west coast Wahington.

Usually when one reaches a certain age late in life, and they have numerous health problems, they have to resign to living in a nursing home. As for me I have to resgin myself to a lifetime of living in a nursing home while still a teenager. To me pleasures mean things like being warm and dry and having a bed to sleep in, regular meals served to me and someone to see to my needs.

Again just commenting on situations being presented. What someone does with themselves is their business and of no personal concern to me.

...At least the beginning of some answers to the last few pages ~ No, I was not forbidden from walking in the neighborhood ~ I guess. But it seemed that it was discouraged, maybe you had to ask to have it unlocked and go out even before 5:30. Also, just walking around a nice-looking but rather samey subyrban neighborhood of close private houses - which, obviously, you couldn't go into - just walking on a sidewalk, maybe with not much to lean against - My CHF has led me to, when walking, often have stop and catch my breath . Also, the lady who kept the house may've had some local pressure, she said something once about " the police don't want (us) hanging around in the front yard " or similar.
I mistype some things ~ AND, late at night, now typing in the dark in the shelter, my eyes get blurry/weaker ~ AND, it seems that some letters may get misspelled my the machine after I have first put them up on the pre-posting screen correctly spelled. I guess the intended meaning got across. I have only a debit card, not a credit card, and do Lyft and Uber want only a credit card? Plus, I'm even having trouble with the debit card, as well. (Wouldn't there likely be someone who would say " I resent you having a debit card. An HL person shouldn't have one. You're stealing from me. " ? Even in Who/Spock 's abscence?) And I acknowledge that the taxi use in SC this summer was extreme - but there was sort of at least avalid reason for it.
Perhaps one not-very-Aspie trait about me is that I use hyperbole and metaphors more - however, I do think some folks were rather commanding me to return to Patterson, metaphorically anyway - and, I don't really think bachs take unsolicited calls from would-be residents, I REALLY don't think I could get to one and back in the course of a single day, with my pain and slowness - and the shelter is a " pop-up " generally taking over a VFW hall but we are all gone by, pre-7:00 AM at the very latest . I can't really " call " like that.
I am very sleep-deprived now too .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

The idea of going for walks was supposed to be "use it or lose it'. There are also city/county/state run shuttle services that pick up people at care facilities to take them places. I don't know that anyone is saying anything about returning to Patterson, it seems to me that ship has sailed already. But of course everyone thinks an older person who has number of serious illnesses should be in a nursing home, rather than being homeless. Calling lyft and uber to see if they take debit cards, is the way to find out if they do or not. There is no reason why a care home would have a problem with calls from would-be residents. But of course one can put up all kinds of imaginary road blocks to keep from even getting started on things. If I were living in Santa Cruz, I would be contacting Santa Cruz city and county social services for help. I would try getting a city/county/state social worker assigned to me to find me a place to live etc. Despite the fact that I am slow and crippled, have moderate/sever autism, learning disabilities, unable to socialize and am basically nonverbal. A person can either get plugged in and take advantage of social services or they can decide they can't or won't and come up with all kinds of imaginary road blocks to keep from even trying. Robin especially has posted a slew of resources available in Santa Cruz, apparently none of which have been utilized.

Tell Patterson to stick it, but don't assume all places are just the same.

Uber accepts debit as long as it is a debit card that has the Visa, MasterCard, etc. logo, too. Almost all debit cards can be run through as a credit these days. No one here resents you having a debit card either, if anyone is disabled enough to deserve state funds, it is you.

No worries about the mistyping, it happens to the best of us at times. As Ezra said, I don't think you should have any trouble with calling care home prospects, the people already there had to have contacted them is some way themselves.

Care homes are restrictive. They want to keep track of their residents/patients. You do have to go though a check out procedure. When my aunt is picked up from her nursing home a procedure has to be followed. Liability is a big deal to those places. They don't want to get sued for negligence. So yeah a patient/resident can't just waltz in and out without basically getting clearance.

Most average care homes are like the one in Patterson. You get a small room with a bed and presumably a chair and small desk along with a small closet, and that's it. It's like renting a bedroom in someone's house. Room and board.

I bet I will hate the place I move to at first. I'll hate the way it smells, looks, sounds and feels. I wont like the staff and other residents. I won't like the food etc. Because being autistic I despise new and different. But I know in time I'll get used to the place and it will become home. And then it will be hard to drag me away from there.