liveandletdie wrote:
I try and go sober but I never can. Longest I can go sober is usually a day or two- sometimes 3 ...
... am I simply a slave for the rest of my life?
We do not have to be, yet we will still always be dependent upon something in order to feel okay ... and please allow me to try to explain that a bit:
We drink and/or we use drugs for the positive effect/s we get, and we do that even though our doing so can ultimately hurt us. Drinking used to make me feel like "almost a somebody", but then I began realizing alcohol would eventually also kill me. So, I had come to a point or "fork in the road" where I could neither live with it nor without it, and that left me in a very bad spot:
I had to have *something* just in order to at least try to feel okay, and that kind of problem is not resolved by abstinence.
Personally, I had to find a substitute for alcohol that would not also kill me, and I found that by taking "The Twelve Steps". You might or might not be interested in doing the same, but the key here is to find the relief we actually do need but without still killing ourselves in the process.
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