Am i the only one who thinks living with autism is Hell?

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Well other people I know who are my age seem to be in work now, just doing the same type of work I'm looking for, like retail, office, catering, nursery, ect.

I completely agree with the OP statement. Regardless of what I've been able to achieve in terms of school or profession, even friendships in certain areas, I get daily - stark - reminders that I'm inexorably different, that I mess with people who are generally rational enough to where it is my fault even though its parts of my behavior (like shiftiness) that are caused by a neurological/sensory malfunction rather than being anything I can control. I'm also finally in a position where I'm quite concerned with my employment, for several reasons but also because - not being anywhere near the center of a bellcurve for thought - if I'm told to be an adult and trust my own judgement 9 times out of 10 it will go well but that 10th time I can and will do certain things that no one will be able to relate to and, right now I could be let go over something that was an honest mistake but where for all anyone else can see my judgement went off the deep end.

The problem with neurological conditions like this is that when we, trying to the best of our ability to meet society half way, fail, we get full weight and credit for our disability - ie. its completely our fault whether we can help it or not and we deserve all of the consequences of our condition. When people offer that the world is just ignorant of it and that people really don't understand what they're seeing - its of even less comfort, often I feel significantly better by telling myself that the rules just dictate that adults with four limbs and no sign of mental retardation are fully responsible for what their oddities inflict on them in life. The fact that so many people don't understand or don't intend to actually tells us that, quite likely in the Darwinian scheme of things, they aren't supposed to - rather we're supposed to be ostracized in nature and starving by ourselves or left to fend against wild animals.

Obviously I can think of many situations worse than autism and suffice to say we live in a really disgusting world. Obviously still though - any condition under the sun where one's best efforts are smacked down and where they are held in contempt or held to be of less honor or value despite their best efforts - is incredibly demoralizing.

Nope, hate it too. Caused emotional loss, which is awkward due to the fact that I need to see the person lost each day. Also makes me feel like I've a target painted on my back and am constantly mocked and made fun of due to the fact that i openly discuss my annoyances, primarily noise and most take it upon themselves to use it against me.

I hate my condition, despite having support from my parents. I'm constantly being told that I should move out, get a job, get my license etc. and live completely independently. Believe me, of it were that easy I definitely would have by now. I have both an ASD and a GAD diagnosis which create many issues for me. I tried getting my license but anxiety attacks during driving tests led me to fail despite being able to drive perfectly with driving instructors. As for moving out, 1) I don't have a mode of transportation 2) I've got zero social support to help me accomplish this 3) Getting a job is next to impossible right now because I'm still in school and my resume has been empty since 4 years ago. I have a hard time managing school and part time work (tried it before). I don't disclose my ASD diagnosis IRL because people (NT's) have told me before that I use it as an excuse to not work and get my license...

I'm not in love with it, either. I'm not even formally diagnosed, nor do I want to be. I think it could only hurt me at this point. I worked so hard to get to my current level of functioning and don't want to lose any gains I have made. I have been told so many times that I can't (or shouldn't) do certain things. A formal diagnosis, for me, would take certain things I want to do off the table forever. I won't tolerate that.

I'm more with you than embracing ASD as lovely.

That's why I was motivated to figure out how to treat it - and I did, 5+ years ago, and shared it here. But there are so many people here in love with their Autism that they're very much against learning anything about anything that can actually treat their symptoms and so they call me names instead.

But for those that have had enough of their ASD symptoms messing with their lives, there are viable treatment options available & I'm sure more will be developed and refined over time.

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