darkphantomx1 wrote:
Like all of my threads, this may offend some people. But please see the bigger picture.
When I was younger, I was unaware of how I acted made others feel about me nor did I really care that much. My 18, 19, and part of my 20 year old mentality was I just simply didn't give a f**k what others thought. But I was also unaware of how cocky, arrogant, self centered, and autistic I appeared to others. You see, seeing how I make others feel has never been my strong suit. And honestly, I never knew I was coming off to others as autistic. In my mind, I had no clue why I was even autistic at all. I mean, i'm not some uncoordinated anime lover who has no interest in others. I'm a sporty extroverted pop loving and just wanna f**k a pretty girl like any other nt men does. And my line of thought in my mid and late teens was, why am I even associated with autistics? I'm better then these losers. I don't come off as autistic at all, why am I even autistic at all?
But then I found out the cold hard truth.
The truth is I do come off as autistic. Sometimes all it takes is watching yourself interacting with other people from a third person point of view. I found out this June when my mother told me as we were driving to camp. And it changed EVERYTHING. Why do you think every job I have they treat me as less then equal, why I can't get a girlfriend, why they treat me like I can't do anything? Because i'm autistic. AND I HATE IT! I'll never get a girlfriend ever because I can't hide it. And you know why I hate being autistic? Because autism is synonymous with a nerd, a virgin, SSI bound, unsuccessful, less then equal. Out of all of the autistics iv'e known, not one of them. Not one, was good with women and had a pretty gf. All of them are the same to me. And you know what doesn't f*****g help? All of these stupid f*****g statistics saying unemployment rate for autistic is very high. That's some negative s**t right there.
They disrespect me they treat me like s**t, women never give me a chance and now I know the truth. It's because i'm autistic.
And I can't have it, I was born to crave power, respect, and love.
I hope these neurotypical assfucks enjoy themselves getting into relationships, f*****g doggystyle, and f*****g in the shower because thats something I never have.
Phantom out
I understand you. As a young adult, one is likely to have a strong sex drive, as you do. You want a love life, which is normal. But love isn't always handed to you on a plate, as in your case. I understand that you feel you will never have a girlfriend because you're "different", but you can't predict the future and you don't know for sure that you will never have one.
The first thing I recommend is that you try to cut down on swearing and especially name-calling. Yes, everyone gets angry and swears sometimes, but swearing a lot makes you look foolish and discourages people from wanting to get to know you, and name-calling can cause you to come off as a bully.
One key thing is being comfortable alone. You want to be in a relationship with someone because you love them, not for the sake of you not being single. Otherwise you would just be using your girlfriend as a source of happiness and sex, and if she was to break up with you, you would blame her for your unhappiness. You'll need to find a way to be comfortable without a girl, otherwise you'll just feel miserable until you get one.
I don't know what other advice to offer you since I'm not an expert on dating, but if you do what I said above you'll have a better chance of getting a girlfriend for sure. I hope this helps.
17 Dec 2015, 7:54 pm
