aspie17
Dont do it , it goes wrong too often and then you will be left feeling guilty and humiliated . Things can get better i have read posts on here from people who cope admirably with the issues autism causes , now im not saying we can all cope that well but when your alive you do have at least the oppurtunity to look for help , change and coping skills . I dont know if you have a psychiatrist , if you don't i strongly suggest you get yourself one now , don't do what i did and wait till your at the bitter end , I dont know how close you are to that , but you sound close enough to me to be in need of real help, more than the help people on a forum can offer even with the best intentions. i was where you are just a couple of months ago , I'M on new meds now and am much more stable and i appear to be coping better than i was , i havent done anything stupid for 5 weeks now , so belive me i havent forgotten what is like , its too recent for me to have forgoten , thing is your very young and so much changes as you get older, i'm not gonna bull s**t you that its easy because it isn't , but somethings are worth fighting for , and the future is one of them . Please don't do anything until you have spoken to a proffesional mental health team worker and considered all the options , there are possibly options that you aren't even aware of at this moment in time . be sure to let us know how your doing. also know your not alone in your thoughts many people have been there before , many still are , but they alive and fighting for there future , just like i am and i hope you will stay with us for that fight.
bb natty