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Oh my gosh I hate dealing with my mean parents but I honor and respect them and love them. From a distance.

For you,



I can't explain
It's not your business anyway
So don't say you understand
And don't pretend you're on my side


Hypocrite - LUSH

Dear dad,
dead diary
Have a look at what you made of me,
a man maddened by madness but can't feel mad
Ain't that a thing, it's the life of the wary,
choked up, you saved me, but then made sights of hell I'll forever see
My last words to you seem to be my last words,
they'll be the words of a broken man, where loss is all he can ever see
All messed up, all stressed out; weight on my chest, made to hold swords,
I don't hope you're proud of me
I just want you to know I never lost love
It's something that couldn't be taken from me,
that's why they'll always be my last words, to a devil or dove
I'll continue to love when someone ever makes me feel that way, as it's also what I'll forever see,
thanks, mum
Son

Dear Dillogic,

I really admire you and your character.
I know you've been through a lot, but you use those experiences to help your mother, yourself, and others.

Your mum is blessed to have a son like you.

Sending hugs and a sense of smell.

Dear IsabellaLinton,

Thank you.

Dill

Dear You,

How much did you lose in the Bitcoin crash?  All your savings and the equity on your house as well?  Really?!

I told you so!

I tried to warn you.  "It's a scam", I said.  "It's like a Ponzi scheme", I said.  "A financial bubble", I said.

"Loser", you said.  "Coward", you said.  "No balls", you said.  "Sucks to be you", you said.

Now you are hinting that I could loan you enough to "get back into the game".

News flash: "GAME OVER -- YOU LOSE!"

You were so arrogant while it seemed you were going to strike it rich that you drove most of us away.  When the crash came and you lost everything, the remaining people quickly "forgot" they ever knew you.  Now it sucks to be you.

Besides, where were you when I was homeless?

Good luck,

Me

Dear you,

I know you've been though a lot lately and need some time to clear your head. Still, I wish I could help, yet I am aware that sometimes only time heals wounds. That you need some time alone. I do not want you to feel pressured into talking, but I want you to know that I am here if you want to confide in someone.

However, I know you are strong - you act so cheerful for a person who has gone through such cruelty. You'll work through this and we'll see each other again in due time, I am almost sure of it.

From, me.

To the punks outside my window,

You seem to be entertained by my Kinks music in an ignorant way. I'm not closing my window. I will not give you my power. Give it a few years. You puppies might be listening to classic rock by than.

Little Local Mod - Woo Hoo

It sickens me that you breathe the same air as me.

Dear you,

I'm waiting for you where the moonlight shines through
I'm not counting the hands, as awaiting your pink hue,
magenta gleams off you, lighting the path from me to you
If you never arrive, then I'll consider the love I have the love I give and cry with
If you arrive, then I'll consider the love you bring with you the love I live

From a simple man

It wasn’t your fault.

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.

Dear Paternal Grandparents,

Yeah, it's been a long time since we talked, but I'm going to ask you both to do me a favor; the favor being to get into Mom's REM and try to convince her that she needs to see someone for her unpredictable mental state.

If yes, I wish you the best of luck.

Grandson

I don't know what I lost first, you or my mind. I'm sorry for the mess.

I'm sorry I didn't take responsibility for my actions until it was too late. It got too real and my mind broke, I abused narcotics and treated all your concerns like a joke. Looking back on that period of my life I feel like a psychopath. I hurt you because I lost my purpose and balance. You ripped the carpet from under my feet. It was already daunting when we were on good terms because I was so scared of upsetting you and you clung to me the same way I did you. I'm a virgin but I talked a big game like I had it all figured out, running from childhood sexual trauma. I really felt how I tried to share with you but it was all strange territory for me. I was isolationg myself from you when I got too attached because I felt like I was suffocating you and it really messed me up when you did what you did. Not only did you watch me closely, I was hurt when you denied your feelings because you were scared I'd flip the script. You sat there everynight watching me and writing posts, accused me of not loving you and all I wanted was for you and me to be together. I felt the same things you shared while you were calling me a narcissist. Both of us were crazy about each other but atleast I admitted it. Maybe this is the end. I want to fight for you love but its all out of my hands. if you're done, thats how it will be and I'll respect your space/

I'm not going to explain myself to you because its not my place to approach her friends. First off I'm sorry for my friends behavior and rude comments he's made to you while you're at your job. Second I'm sorry my presence is such a bother to you and I understand why you are disgusted by me. I'm actually relieved that you've stayed by her side this whole time despite my previous delusional poison. I apologize that I kissed you thinking you were her. It wasn't to plant any seed of betrayal and I'm not saying this as an excuse because I know I messed up but I was psychotic with a heavy xanax addiction. You both are the same height and had the same hair, and truthfully I seemed to catch you eyeing me alot at work so in that moment I thought you were her. I sincerely apologize for what I did and I have no idea what really happened a few years ago at the park but I seem to recall seeing you with a red headed man talking crap about me and you appeared really upset and to me it seemed like you were defending me. You'll never see this nor would you care but I had a lot of admiration for how you carried yourself and I found you beautiful but It never once appeared in my mind to befriend you or anything because I was in love with your friend. I've been owning up to my mistakes and I was a bad person, schizophrenia or not I made bad choices and failed to think before I acted. Am I obsessed with her? since the day I've met her. So much has happened and so many harmful words were said that I can't just do away with the damage. I left a path of destruction that I can't fully understand myself but I know I changed lives negatively. When people ask me about her watching me I've been telling the truth about how I was psychotic. I can't just erase what I did and she's seemingly unreachable so I've left her to reach her own explanations. The hurtful actions went both ways. Did you know that when I embarrassed myself by outing my autism and ptsd she told me she had her daughter tested but it was negative and she snarkly added that thank god she's not a freak. Also when I left her office she walked ahead of me then ran back and threatenly told me that on one will believe me anyway that she was watching me. I didn't want this to become a pubic spectacle but she pushed me into a corner until I had a psychotic break. I don't need no validation for my feelings but it's upsetting that she is having delusional thoughts like I was and no ones truly listening to her and helping her stay on the path to recovery. To me the only solution in her eyes is for me to take my life as she's said on reddit before. I keep my feet planted primarily in my backyard doing my stupid woodworking projects, unkept appearance, poor health but that's not good enough. I isolate myself and block all former mutual friends, quit my former favorite activity and become obese and borderline diabetic. Somehow that's not good enough, either I stick to myself and I catch her walking halfway up my driveway before she sees me or when there's an opportunity where we both can safely communicate she shuts me out from talking and basically tries to coerce me into doing something stupid to myself when she knows how I feel about her and why. Please, Please convince her that there's some other man out there that will love and respect every bit of her and is actually capable of getting her out of her slump.