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...I must say I'm a little disappointed that I've gotten no responses yet !

Remember, most are probably with family or friends this weekend as it's the 4th.

Ok, you have a charge card that you can put money in, but no bank account... just confused on that one and yeah, walking through a rough neighborhood with a ton of cash on your person is always asking for trouble.

Just out of curiosity, is there some sort of vocational or disability service in SF where you could go and apply for services?

...It seems:-( that I won't be getting it til' next week , or Saturday at the very earliest .
I really NEED it ! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
The hospital program people have SO taken my money , while delivering practically no things at all ...

Suicide is the worst idea. Have you ever seen videos of guys who tried to kill themselves with a gun to the mouth and failed. Its not a pretty sight. The survivors have to have their faces reconstructed and trust me it does not look even halfway normal.

...I did get that chack , finally , and cashed some of it , briefly , I got an SRO room for a week , as of now .
I'll need to get the rest of the money Monday...

..OK , I did , eventually , get all of the money and get all of it cashed and put some on my charge card (which was expired and I had to get a new one) , and that took most of a week !
It's nearing the end of the 2nd week at the room .
Basically , the money is out .
And , my San Francisco General Hospital program ( SFGH program ) has , to simplify , put even MORE " We''ll never let you get away ! " restrictions on me...
I HAVE to find a place to rest my foot , AND , I have to get my money free from them...

Glad to here it worked out.

...Well , not quite .
If nothing else , I'll have to be homeless too-morrow , the money's ran out even faster than I thought , and , to start...( I'm at the " 15 mins " library computers , it's hard to concentrate and write on them . )...Before this , when I was homeless , I had bought some second-hand slacks/shorts , at Goodwill .
These left my pink/Caucasian/freckled skin rather exposed , and they got RED and stiff/sunbirned...
They've recovered some , since I've been outdoors , but now that I'm going to be HL again ...
I'll get some second-n\hand full pants , I assume I'll be able to find something .
As I mentioned , it took most of a week to resolve the getting the money/getting all of it cashed/depositing some in my charge card (which was expired so I had to get a new one)/making sure it was deposited...
Partly , perhaps , for that reason I walked around too much , and my bad foot hurt/got swollen a lot... I've likely overused my codeine pain pills...

...I also spent a lot of the week obsessing about getting the cards , and presents for my brother , off for my brother and uncles' birthdays ...I got it done , anyhow .
I'll be homeless tomorrow .
I ought another " homeless kit " yesterday , of a backpack , yoga/homeless/sleeping mat , and tarp (of sorts) , and plastic water bottles .
I had , before , managed to get a new overcoat , now Army drab/-camaflaged-colred , and an XXX(X??)L T-shirt , and some XL " wifebeater " tees for underneath it , for warmth .
I am super-XL on everything ,, and even finding , let alone affording , new clothes is a difficulty for me .
I couldn't find new pants I was sure would fit me then , where I was then .
Now , I'll have to get something second-hand , tomorrow .
I thought that I would strech it out one more day , but the " helping me " SFGH program says that they couldn't give me a check by tomorrow , so that's that .
I want to be FREE OF THEM !
In an Army-camo top , I sort of look like a monk (on top)/Kevin Smith (full body/with my grown-out short hair & salt & pepper beard , sort of John Lennon-ish/a movie-TV idea of " a homeless Vietnam vet/hippie " , tho , as I said , my hair isn't long . I posed in a mirror making a piece sign , in the camoflage outfit
I have only the one very-worn pair of shoes (sandals) , but I haven't the money too ,reasonably , look for and hope to find things my size that fit me , not now , especially...I have a backpack that , in fact , may be too heavy now ...

...I have a temporary (sh***y) room now , I didn't get around to posting more when I was fully homeless...but the vampire casemanagement people give me NO! money , I have ONLY the clothes I am wearing , for clothes , I can't even wash them , and , they have a FOUR-FIGURE amount of my money...

...Please read the recent 3 pages in my Homeless Tomorrow linee in General .

Dude, why don't you get some sort of plan? All you do is bum money, waste it, go from place to place and inform us of your travels. You can't keep doing this forever. Get some goals and make something of yourself.

...You make me sound like some Jack Kerouac/Peter Fonda in " Easy Rider " wanna-be , when I have been stuck in one city , SF (and one - pretty sh***y - portion of it , I might add) , for all this time !
FTM , my " theiving cousin " situation has kept me starved of money , and waiting around for the " key person " who might be able to help me with it , to come back to , not just this country or even this continent , this HEMISPHERE !
I have been trying to deal with my bad foot situation , too...
Being able to deal with it , and getting my money back from the people who took , tricking me , my payee status away from me , has been both my/a goal , and my problem .

...I have been so trapped with the situation of the payee people having taken my money , and my being despeate about it ...Now , it seems that thay have shown themselves to be SO " beyond being any good to me " that , well ! !! !! !! !!

...As far as what are seen as " nice " , " ambitious " , desires conventionally , I would LIKE to go back to college , but:
(1) I do NOT!! have the money that would be required to pay for application , credits signed up for , etc.
(2) I'm not healthy/stable ( Or , the right kind of atability , either . ) enough for it , either...
(3) As I have found out after NUMEROUS attempts to go back to college , my HS/early college records are complicatedly lost , and , to get them , I'd need either REALLY good friends or/and money sufficient to hire some kind of facilitatior/private investigator to look for them...I sure can't , and certainly not now . Do not say some inane " Oh , a handy-dandy college admissions officer will solve everything for you lickety-split ! " , I will f*****g reach out of the computer and pull your tonsils from your throat then...

You are funny. Be a comedian. Talk about how crappy it is to be a bum and point out the stuff to people,who aren't bums, take for granted and they will laugh at their own stupidity.