Well, it's official...I am SCUM

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First of all, you can try to have some self compassion, second I think the fact that you seem so neurotic about trivial stuff is a bigger problem then a misdemeanor, that no employer is going to care that much about , or even know of.

Maybe yea you should feel a little guilty about it, and some regret is productive here, but there's no need to feel toxic shame like you're irredeemably bad now . most people would see that as nothing in the context of the nasty word 'criminal'. Especially if your a teenager. most people will just think "well that's how teenagers are, they over react to things and they're prone to vandalism.

But even then, most who do that do it for fun, so what you're even less blameworthy, and the fact that even care to that extent is proof by itself that you have plenty of morals.

And I honestly I do the same things sometimes, when I'm in a bad mood and I'm looking for a catharsis. Like I've knocked random trash cans over and stepped on peoples flowers and stuff. The other night, I came close to almost smashing someones windshield with a rock, and I tried to knock down a Snoopy themed mailbox .

I know It's stupid, and I'm not proud of myself, but It's not really that big a deal and I just forget about. If nothing else, and you still want to see yourself that way, then keep in mind at least that everyone else is at least just as bad if not worse.

Honestly, I don't think you need to stress all that much.

As long as you don't do anything stupid, your record will be expunged in a few years.

It's definitely off your record, and nobody can access it.

Come one, buddy....you have to move on from this. Really you do.

You're not scum, you're a perfectionist who isn't perfect. Which I used to be too, until life beat the perfectionism out of me one inch at a time. My 25-year-old self would literally rather have died than become a "failure" like I am today. He was wrong.

Sometimes it IS worth knowing how other people judge you. There's a scale of scum. Man who rapes and murders children: lowest pit of evil, hated even by other criminals. Racist murderer: scum scum f*****g scum. Burglar, armed: very bad. Burglar, unarmed: slightly less bad. Shoplifter....

In my book, "man who scratches up cars" is morally about level with "man who chucks cans in the street." And a long, long way above "Man who sells weapons to corrupt and violent countries, but perfectly legally." I'd sooner trust you than the men in suits who run the place. At least you have a conscience.