he still won't leave it alone.

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no. i can't.
it won't help.
even though i think it will.

not allowed to do it.

You're an adult. You make your own rules.

Unless it hurts you in any way, do it. :\

Last edited by Jonsi on 05 Mar 2011, 6:20 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I'm guessing you don't actually wanna say what it is that you can't do, but is it something that would harm you in any way? If not, then why can't you do it? It sounds to me like you really need to do something to help yourself before you can properly sort out all this s**t with that psycho. Maybe even just taking a bath and having a lie down, or talking about it with someone, like I said. You're clearly in a bad state at the moment which is worrying

Are you close to your family or a friend who lives nearby?

my family are dead.
stefan is all i have.
and i can't even look at him.

yes. it would hurt.
but thats why i need to do it.

Hurting yourself won't help

Does Stefan know what's going on?

yes.

i just want him to go away and leave me alone.
then he won't have to feel guilty.


i should have just let him kill me instead of coming back home.

No, as I said you don't deserve any more pain.

emlion, just talk to him. You have nothing to lose.

The psycho? Did you go out and meet him or something?

And I agree with Jonsi, talk to Stefan. He's the best person you can talk to, and he would WANT you to

just give up on me.

i might have seen him.

Never. I love you as much as a friend can, so I can't.

You really should talk to him. I know you don't want to hurt him but you'd only hurt him more by harming yourself and shutting him out.

he shouldn't have to deal with this.

neither should you.

No one should have to deal with this, including you most of all

Look, if I had a gf and she was going through anyway near as much s**t as this, I know for a fact I would want her to talk to me. You won't make things worse for him by talking to him, you'll make things easier as he'll understand more what's going on in your head and be better placed to help you

He would want to. He's your lover, he's your closest friend and most of all he's the one who cares most about you. He'll want to help. And he's the only one who can right now. You just have to let him.

And to respond to your edit, I do want to. I wish I could do more than just type at you. But I can't. That's Stefan's job.

Last edited by Jonsi on 05 Mar 2011, 6:38 pm, edited 1 time in total.

letting him see my face was as far as i could go.
he wants to sort it out for me, i don't want him to touch me.

What would be the best way for him to sort it out?

If you don't want to be touched right now then that's understandable, I'm sure he will get that

You can still talk to him though