Life with AS is a living hell

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The ones who do I don't understand at all. I was actually born pre-mature and wasn't expected to live. I sometimes feel like that is why my life is so horrible. I wasn't supposed to live and the universe wants me gone.

I used to think I was God's mistake and that I should be gone. It's important to get that out of your head; it's just not true.

some people say i am a monster. some people say otherwise. i say they both can be right, depending on my decisions in every specific situation ^^

Warning: possible triggers in post below.

I was told by classmates in school and even at church multiple times that I was a mistake that God forgot to correct. A few of them tried to fix that with severe beatings and attempts on my life. The pastor even said I should not exist there in ”their” world and should just end it. Those statements caused me great mental damage that cannot be fixed by human or otherwise. Back then it lead me to ask God for the power to erase my existence from the beginning. Unfortunately, it seems to be an unobtainable goal, but is something I still have to deal with even today. When a concept has been beaten into your head over and over again, it simply does not leave when you want it to.

and that is exactly why xenophobia is on top of my hate list...
u are not a mistake. they are. because they chose so.

Where in all of creation is an example of God making a mistake? You might not root the idea out of your mind but it's worth contradicting it. Please try to answer that question (unless it's a trigger).

Just a thought: they didn't happen to tell you that you have a guardian angel, did they? Because, mistake that I was, my guardian angel was the Archangel Michael. My mind did that on its own. I just realized it. Did you have anything like that?

My elder son IS a guardian angel
He is superior to anyone who wd dare think of his beautiful perfect soul and being as a ‘mistake’
He is a King and they are lowlife fleas.
A ‘mistake’- more like, the guy who said that to you made a mistake in his thinking.

To call someone esp an ASD champion (bcuz daily life takes more effort than it does fr them) a mistake is a very foolish and hurtful and inaccurate statement

My son is at least twenty times
more worthy of heaven than any such people who look down on him.
He will have a whole magnificent palace in Heaven a compared to them who will have huts, if that.

I doubt that pastor u speak of will get even a square metre in heaven, harbouring and teaching such senseless and hurtful things to impressionable people who trust him. Possibly secretly an abuser of some kind to his family if he was so brazen in saying that about you and other ASD kings and queens


My son would prove his statement wrong a billion times over which that pastor will see for himself on the Day of Judgement.

Sorry, I cannot answer that question (too painful).

I grew up a Christian but depression and seeing the double standards around me in the Bible Belt made me lose my faith.

I can't adapt to this world I live in. My detractors keep winning and I keep losing.

Question: do you young folks have a better time of it, with training and so on?
Or was your world no more enlightened than mine?
Were things explained to you, were you accepted?

Everything I've done before ended up as a slog that went nowhere even if I did receive training.

I live in a culture that generally thinks Christianity was always in the US and that Hinduism is the same as Islam.

I was told God had a "plan" for me and that was all I needed to know. I was only accepted as long as I didn't go pass certain limits and was forcefully pulled back when I started going near them.

I wish I had never been born.

That sounds very familiar and it's really too bad, with all the promises they made to younger generations. Can you control your own environment, who you're with, stuff like that? Do you feel accepted at WP?

No to both questions.