Dear Ana,
So you're not as bright as you thought you were. Calm down. Take a nice gulp of air. What did you expect; to be the best in the world? It is a bit of a spastic moment when you realize that even if you'd studied it would have been useless. Maybe if you'd paid attention in class in school your number would me a bit higher; they have you down after all as having completed grade 12, but you barely did. Stimulation and instinct have next to nothing to do with IQ. You can still function as a person and better yourself and live a long time and be smarter than some people with Mensa-level IQs who get depressed or into drugs that make them more depressed. You really are still really lucky. Nothing in you changed between the time you took the test and the time you start thinking "Oh my God, I'm only average!" If anything, knowing people are so smart and can stimulate you is good; it's potential, and all the misadventures that can go with trying to dodge smart people's mistakes may be just the stimulation you need!
Oh, no. Don't be naive. People being smarter than you might kill you too. But more likely, it will be good, because you are a person, not a dust bunny.
Now go to sleep before you get even less coherent, you silly little s**t.
TTYL,
Ania