Dear "You"...From "Me"-Letters Unsent
SilverProteus
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Dear You,
Yes I know you are just trying to help. But please stop hassling me about the damn reports. I will do them. When I get the brain space. At the moment they wouldn't even come out in any sensible form and my brain hurts.
Its Saturday night anyway, hadn't you notices? Just because you are a workaholic doesn't mean that the world has to jump when you say. Its 9.30 Saturday night. Give me a break!! !
From Me
SilverProteus
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Dear L.
I'm disappointing you. I've broken the rule I promised months ago not to break. For that, I'm sorry. But it's better this way, trust me I was never meant to be the way you want me to be. I'm sitting here watching your name on MSN and wondering how to tell you. Did you know this would happen?
love,
a.
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sodarktheshadows
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SilverProteus
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You,
I've been denying the truth for roughly 4 months, and that's after I realised that it was the truth. I'm no longer denying the truth, but would really rather keep it to myself. There's too much at stake.
Me.
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"Lightning is but a flicker of light, punctuated on all sides by darkness." - Loki
Dear Melanie, Angela, Shirley, Andreas, Jeremy, John, Tim, and also all the Aspies I met in the other social skills groups--
I wish I had been more proactive getting your phone numbers! Then we could have had years of fun together, parties at my house, all going out together, etc. But we never. We were all too shy, too afraid of being shot down. Maybe one day I'll call that hospital and tell them to tell all those kids that they can come to my place, when I get one! It'll be a drop-in hangout for Aspies, a safe haven from whoever is stressing them out, annoying them or depressing them! I miss you and the parties we attended at the hospital.
~Staz
Dear Christian, you were an okay instructor.
Dear Fraser, I miss hanging out with you. I remember how you were worried about getting your best shirt and best shorts and best shoes wet, while we were just sitting in the motor boat, lol. And I remember how you and Karl went into the weeds to rescue me when I was stuck in the weeds, and then you guys got stuck too!
Dear Teresa, you were an okay instructor too.
Dear Michayel, remember when we were in a boat together and I scared you just by not knowing what I was ding, and you were crying and mad at me and asking if I was in White Sail 1 or 2? That was fun; we weren't in any danger but you were just crying and crying!
Alyssa, you were fun to be in the boat with, until you got your finger stuck in the rudder... of course it had to be while in the boat with ME, lol! When you were up on the balcony drinking water and someone downstairs asked you what you were doing and you said "Just drinking", lol, that was cute.
Alyssa and Rebecca, you were fun, you were 9 but knew all about the Holocaust, you went to that cool German school, Alexander von Humboldt, you talked about the drought and the theft of one of your family's cars. Alyssa talking all about her kidney surgery and its aftermath was interesting, Rebecca talking about her ear surgery was also interesting, lol.
Zoe, you were fun. My dad commented on your big hair. I remember it was you who showed me the Wall of Shame with the Life Jacket of Shame. I remember how you gave me like half your lunch because you didn't want it-- juice, little Crispers chips, grapes, other nibbly stuff. My dad thought I was stealing little kids' lunches, lol. He seriously wondered. Remember when I lost my sandal in the mud and was trying to find it and you're like "Who cares abotu your sandal? Don't you care about our lives?" LOLOL; you thought we were going to die. We were jsut in the weeds!
Edward, I won't forget how traditional and wholesome and individualistic you were. You were nice, were into healthy food, preferred to be called Edward rather than Eddie, and you left early one day because you had to have a pencil lead removed from your finger, lol. You told me to think of something happy after I went into the weeds on Parents' Day and they never actually got to see me sail, lol. I had never met anyone as good as you.
Francois-- it was fun sinking the boat with you! I lied when you asked me how much I weighed and I said 130, but I was really 150! And then you still said I was too big for the boat, lol. You wouldn't let me into the boat and I was hanging off the edge bailing while you were in the b oat, and then they had me get back into the boat with you anyway! You were a bit wierd tho.
Victoria-- I was jealous of that noose you made, and of your looks! I was wierd. You bragged about how you could get out of anything, how people had tied you up before so it was easy for you, you were like me too, fun-loving and collecting those little fruit containers that had had that powdered fruit candy in them. You were helpful, shouting suggestions to others from your boat. I lived your sense of humor; when Karl said somethign about how they were taking up 2 benches just playing this game where two benches were tied together and some people pulled Adrien around, and you said "So? You'd take up three!" BURN! OWOWOW, but it was so funny!
Adrien-- you were cool, lying in your boat totally relaxed, but sailing perfectly tho you looked like you were dead. You were handsome and I liked those red-tinted glasses on you.
Kevan-- you and Adrien seemed fun together at sailing camp, playing that game with a coin and counting the bloodmarks it made on your hands, but I think you had some issues, and I saw you at Lakeside and we looked at each other and I knew you recognized me; I hope you didn't see how unpopular I was there.
Karl-- you were fun, friendly, had a sense of humor though you'd deny it... you and Fraser went into the weeds to help me and got stuck yourselves, and you guys thought it was a big deal, lol.The way others teased you, made me feel right at home with you. But you were still cool. You never lost that coolness. It was cute, you just instinctively grabbing a garbage can lid and using it as a shield when people were throwing stuff at you.
Camille-- ow, did the people at the other siling camp really say you were stupid? OW!
Stephanie-- you were so happy and fun! I remember when people were making comments about your Lotus life jacket-- "Wow, a Lotus life jacket!", but it was actually your little sister's and didn't fit you, and you couldn't even get it zipped up, lol. Then when you asked if you could take off your pants while in a boat, and Teresa's like WHAT?, and you have your bathing suit underneath and take off your shorts and throw them into the crash boat, lol.
Greg-- remember when I caused you to need a new life jacket after 7 years of having the same one, with "I'm with stupid" and an arrow on the back?
It was also funny when you were demonstrating how not to wear a life jacket and what life jackets not to use, and you put this tiny little baby's life jacket on your leg.
I had a feeling that I would meet you somewhere else other than sailing, the first summer you were my instructor, and then sure enough months later I met you in Cohoes where you were working!
Olivier-- you were SO not as good at philosophy as you thought.
Andrew-- it was fun talking to you, you were like my friend there, it was fun talking about Harry Potter with you too, and mourning the loss of Sirius Black.
Mike-- you were fun and funny; we all poked fun of you for saying "essentially" every fifth word or something.
Nathalie-- how did you do in America's Cup? What are you doing now?
Alicia-- you were nice; I wish you were one of my instructors!
Chrsitine-- I was surprised by your incompetence, lol, you were so fun and enthusiastic and nice and eager to ask me if it was fun going out in the storm when you saw that I was wet and there had been a storm that day. You said pitchpoling was fun, Greg said it was a good way to destroy a boat, lol.
Amanda-- you were fun and nice, I enjoyed your story about the fat girl in your class whose leg, when flat because she was sitting down, took up one chair, and whose stomach was a metre and one or two centimetres; WOW!
Katya-- you were nice.
Conrado-- you were fun; I think it was you whose boat went all the way to Dorval Island, right? When we pretended to hang you that was fun too!
Alessandro-- why did you not like me? Did my look disgust or depress you?
Fernand-- you were so cute and sweet and fun; I'd love to have you as a little brother! Your song about shooting the bear while camping was so cute and creative.
Laurence-- congratualtions, girlfriend, you and I both got our White Sail III that summer while everyone else in the group was getting their Bronze Sail 4 or 5.
(Re)becca-- when you lost that daggerboard and it sank, and you felt bad about it and worried, I felt better knowing I wasn't the worst one! You were responsible but fun-loving; we played that game where we timed how long it took each other to run over the top of the couches and stuff in the upstairs room; remember?
Travis-- Why did you like dropping rocks on frogs? Ow!
Then you said to me everything was an endangered species, and I felt like such a spoilsport, lol. When your mom came at lunch to give you the gorgeous brand new trapeze harness she got you, and was carrying it like she would carry a child, and you saw each other and she handed it to you, wordlessly, lovingly, I was intrigued by how a boy whose sweet mother gave him a trapeze harness he wanted and bragged about could be a merciless squasher of frogs, lol.
Laura-- you're nice and I thought you were snooty at first.
Sophie-- it was fun when we were in the current together in our two separate boats, and for a long time too, and couldn't get out, and after that you're like "That was boring"... so honest but your tone was still tactful; right on!
Marco-- you SO deserved the Spirit Award. You were so fun and happy and mischievous!
Arielle-- you were nice; I wish you had been in my group!
Gabrielle-- you were nice and fun and put me at ease
Charles Edward-- you were fun and mischievous, I liked you.
Trevor and Graham-- you were fun and nice
Emilie-- you were fun and nice, asked me on the first day if I wanted to be your friend, and were adventurous and good at sailing too!
Dana-- you were a nice fun friend; I enjoyed talking to you about the parties you crashed and how our boats kept finding each other and bumping into each other, and I remember once I was in the water and my boat was sailing away from me, I think towards you, and I temporarily lost sight of it and I said "Boatyo, my Boatyo, where art thou, my boaty-o"... silly but fun.
I called my boat Tacky because it kept tacking for no reason, lol.
Charles (Charlie)-- you were a fun head instructor with a great sense of humor!
Emilie (the other one)-- I enjoyed your gossip.
Martin-- you were cool, I think me and you had a little disaster together in the weeds or something, I don't think you were complaining like the others tho.
Francesca-- I liked you, you were nice and fun.
Elyssa and Katrina-- which one of it was the one who claimed to be shy and asked me to ask the instructors when we were going to head in? And then I refused, I felt so bad about it even tho I knew you guys were probably plotting ways to make me fail or something, you and Michelle and Kayla I think!
Madeleine-- I liked your individualistic ways!
Blake-- you were fun and nice; when we were going over the risks of sailing a certain way or in a certain situation or something, I forget, you chimed in with "dying", and then looked at me and laughed, sweet and innocent. Then you refused to get into the boat and we had to throw you in but then you loved it and didn't want to get out of the boat, lol! I was tempted to say "An object at rest will stay at rest until an outside force acts upon it", hehe.
Griffin-- you were fun and I think good at it.
Cedric-- you made me feel better when you forgot that sailing had started, for 3 days, and then you were out in a boat with some friends or something, and you saw that the boats were off the dock, and you realized it had started! Remember when Kayla said we sounded like a married couple when you said I kept sitting on you and I kept saying you were sitting in my way or something?
Carolyn-- that name when we went bowling that you typed into the score thing, cacacarolyn, was funny and clever, you were nice and fun besides, I was too shy to get to know you tho!
Ann-- It was fun when you told about your science teacher who drew two atoms on the board side by side and then said they were two atoms, but they looked like breasts, and you were on the floor laughing and the teacher ran away.
Andrew (Andy)-- it was fun in the boat with you. You were funny and fun. What was this Bertha thing anyway? You and Ann made her up or something? The Zimbabwe national anthem was funny but I never got how it came to be an inside joke! It was cute with you learning Arabic and teaching others Arabic too.
Jared-- you were fun and nice and funny
Julien-- you were so fun and nice and funny, with your ever-present tools that you carried everywhere and sometimes fixed the boats with, how you turned on the blowtorch and firey stuff shot out, I wish I'd seen it! I like pyro guys! you were experimental and fun!
Stef and Dylan-- you were a cool, fun, funny, ncie dynamic duo, who happened to live on Greg's street! When we were playing that name game to get to know each other on the first day, with each of us saying our name and what food we liked that began with the same first letter as our names, you said "My name is Stef and I like s**t" which inspired me to suggest to Andrew, who was having a hard time thinking of something (I don't know why!), "My name is Andrew and I like Aspirin", or "My name is Andrew and I like alcohol." That would have been hilarious!
Louis-- I loved your nonchalant but skilled attitude, your hammer and your bear shirt!
Dillon-- you were nice I think, and probably fun and funny
Bridgette-- I think you were nice
Pippa-- I think you were nice
Alix-- you were nice and reminded me of me when I was your age
Ashley-- you were nice and I liked your stories you told
Roman, Milan, I think both of you were fun
Dominique-- it was fun drifting to Pointe-Picard with you and Ann; then you said you had hypothermia even tho you didn't and Kayla was like "Cool! You had hypothermia?" LOL.
Luc-Kai, Falco-- you were another dynamic duo, you were fun, the German-speaking, the handmade fishing rods and lines that I think you made yourselves, the nice friendliness, how Luc-Kai said I would ace the test, I could talk to him, he was cool, he was also fun because he kept dumping the boat on purpose! Haha!
Kayla-- why? And as to the fast tracking from Learn to Sail to Learn to Race to Bronze, and someoen said you'd be famous, lol, I never did believe that you had never sailed before.
Michelle-- why?
To anyone I forgot, I probably liked you!
