Fear people are after you / need to stand up for myself more

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Do you ever fear about people coming after you?

My interest is basicly Irreverent Humor.

When I was an intern at the public access studio that use to air my show, there was this crazy biker guy (I wouldn't mention his name) but he drive the bosses at the studio crazy. He always joked about BDSM and sexist remarks. There's a Rock Music show on the channel and I asked him if he'd ever heard of the show just to make small talk, suddenly he put his cell phone to my ear and it was someone yelling saying "I'm leaving him, please come pick me up". I asked "Who was that"? It was the hostess of the show and he said to me "I could have been her boyfriend! I Could have been her boyfriend" so he was emotionally enstable, esspecially for a biker. Later I bump into the hosts of the Rock Music program and we are joking around about the biker guy and how he's always getting arrested for doing dumb things and how emotionally unstable he is. Then they asked me to make fun of him on my show and before I switched my show from public access TV to the web, I did it. People from another rock show at the station saw it and loved it. I told them that I would be afriad if he ever saw me or knew about it because he looked like a tough guy. One person from the show told me that she used to date him and to not worry about it because he can take a joke. The other person said "Don't mind him, he's just a baby!" He deserves it.

When I was helping out at the public access studio I saw him but thank God he didn't see me. I told the new public access cordator that I'm just afriad that if he saw me because of the request joke. She smiled and says "Don't worry about it, you'll be fine."


So it's basicly nothing to worry about but I do wish that I had a more strongler self-confidence, esspecially being a Satirist which I need to be.



Basicly my thoughts are, okay to save me from any kind of trouble, I can stop satire and irreverent humor. But here's two things about that. 1, people are going to be angry at me through out like just like everyone else and I just need to learn how to deal with it more and 2. Irreverent Humor is my LIFE! Aspies, you know what it's like loving your interests.

But at the same time if I continue being a Satirist, I have to learn how to deal with someone who doesn't get the joke. But again that's also part of life so I just need to have better self-confidence and not worry so much.

When I wake up in the morning or if I'm bored or if I'm trying to fall asleep at night, I tend to worry about stuff that I shouldn't be worrying about. I can't help it.