Just about the end for me

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AussieAspie
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25 Sep 2009, 2:22 am

Hi all,
I just did an online IQ test and scored 142. That must mean that I am smart enough to know when I am wrong or right, right!. However for some reason I don't know if I or anything is right or wrong. If I am real or not. People wont leave me alone always telling me what I'm supposed to do, but are they right or wrong and am I right or wrong if I question their statements.

I would have to say that within the past couple of years my problems have become far worse, my Aspergers has become far worse, not one aspect of my life has improved.

Noone either wants to help, or seems to help in anyway, they only seem to hinder or get in the way.

I am so very tired, I always like to sleep these days I have no energy for anything else. Living is so god damn hard. I have genuinely snapped and will not be the same again. :(



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25 Sep 2009, 2:47 am

:cry: I know how that feels.



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25 Sep 2009, 2:51 am

Hey there. Sounds like a tough place to be. Ohh, what to say...

Kind of this feeling :?: :arrow:

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I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong!
Friday, July 3, 2009

I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong!
I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong! I'm Wrong!
I'm always goddamn f*****g WRONG!
I'm Wrong when I do what should be a good thing.
I'm Wrong when I do nothing.
I'm Wrong when I have feelings.
I'm Wrong when I don't have feelings.
I'm Wrong when I want something.
I'm Wrong when I don't want something.
I'm Wrong when I do what I'm supposed to.
I'm Wrong when I don't do what I'm supposed to.
I'm Wrong when I say something.
I'm Wrong when I say nothing.
I'm Wrong when I do what's right.
I'm Wrong when I do what's wrong.
I'm Wrong when I'm in.
I'm Wrong when I'm out.
I'm Wrong when I'm up.
I'm Wrong when I'm down.
It doesn't matter if I do.
It doesn't matter if I do not.
It is not possible for me to be right.
So why the hell am I still alive?
That's gotta be Wrong too.
But, no, wait, it is also wrong to not be alive.
Betcha I'm even wrong for saying this here.
Wrong!Wrong!Wrong!I'm always goddamn f*****g WRONG!


Posted by These 4 parts of me at 1:57 PM


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25 Sep 2009, 10:46 am

I'm sure you've already done this, but if not, you might want to go see a therapist - wanting to sleep all the time sounds like depression, and I know from experience that depression makes everything else in your life harder.

I hope things get better for you soon.


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