Meltdown, meltdown, meltdown......

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Had the biggest tantrum yesterday.......followed by an intense period of loathing and bottomless......and shutdown.

The rage came on me so quickly that I had no time to prepare for it.......it is like being in the surf and being dumped by a wave.

Curl up in a ball and let the wave take you.......or you get your arms broken. Such is my rage.......

Over no milk for tea and a ginger biscuit.

I have had a lot of stress in my personal life.......but it all comes down to tea. Why can't I just express stress like everyone else? Why can't I have stages of anger? Why is it that the sky could be falling, and I all I care about is the BLOODY MILK FOR TEA AND A FREAKING GINGER BISCUIT!! !! !! !!

Despite my general loathing at being touched, I think I need a hug.......

I think you should go to the store and get as much milk and biscuits as you want, as well as anything else that looks good.

Sometimes that works for me. I also have these moments where I'm surprised to find myself angry without rhyme or reason.

((hugs)) I hate it when emotions possess me like satan and surprise me like that. I'll be cool and collected, and then suddenly a wave of rage will hit when some small thing goes wrong. I yell at technology gone wrong a lot. I'm afraid to get angry at people in my life who might be disappointing me in some way, and then it all comes out when my printer or cd player won't work.

(((hugs)))
I get what you're at. Thinks like that happen to me. Random rage, then self anger and pools of saddness for me though.

The thing I focus on is: this will pass and if anyone saw it they will soon forget about it if I don't remind them.

Well it may look like it's about milk and a ginger biscuit, but you know that's not what it's about. The few times I've had the closest thing to a meltdown is when I've been eating stress with a smile for too long and then of course something happens that pushes me over the edge. The curious thing is, and you may find the same, that you'd think a little yelling would ease the pressure. But sometimes it doesn't. There have been times I've told my son I'm sick to death of being treated like a servant and the more I express it the madder I get, until I'm reduced to just repeatedly throwing things on the floor and yelling I can't stand it, I can't stand it , I can't stand it and he's saying you're scaring me Mom. Whew. After going through substance abuse treatment I think there are similar issues going on. Issues of an expectation of one's self of perfectionism is a great way to set yourself up for using or having a meltdown. I was raised with it, my father was Mr. Mild Mannered until someone left the cap off the toothpaste at the wrong time. I know what kind of damage it can do. So do you think working on managing stress would help? I know it sounds easier to say than do.

I don't seem to get that, the only time I have a meltdown is when things are really bad, someone has to be really horrible to me for me to have a meltdown.

i hope u are doing ok (hugs) have a day off and do what u like

Thanks everyone for your support and replies........

Inevitably the meltdown brings rundown.......

Prolongued stress really flares up my physical illness issues.......

I have had a blissful 2 days on my own......my son and partner are camping......

Ahhhhhh some slepp would be good........and Spongebob Square pants

Cheers,

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