I can't cope...

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I just received a warning for innapropriate posting...I deserved it really...I'm just so frustrated and alone...with my boyfriend a long way away, my mum a long way away, and my PS3 a long way away, browsing this site is the only thing that keeps me relatiely sane...now I'm on my way to f*****g that up too...just...blargh, I need to stay away from this site, before I say some really stupid things and get myself banned totally.

Email me, though. Anyone. Seriously, anyone. I don't care. Just someone, please, talk to me, before I do something stupid...

I need a spliff. *logging out*

Hey, don't worry. It was just a minor mis-stepping over boundaries. I'm sure no permanent harm was done.

Sorry but are you talking about the one where you said as a child you thought about killing people, or your creepy rape fantasy thing? No offense but that was a little inappropriate and a bit disturbing.

Actually, I'd say that both of those things were quite common. But it's not up to me to say what the rules are. Just have some time away, and think more carefully before you post next time, AJCoyne.

I should probably follow my own advice, I can totally see me getting banned :

I had similar fantasies about killing when I was a teen, but they were more of the "school shooting" variety-I was such a despised outcast in my wealthy HS that I dreamed of gunning down all the snobbish rich jocks. I still have fantasies of going after anybody powerful, like politicians in general, or the elite bankers. I will never have any control over my life, so I fantasize about going out in a blaze of glory. I would never really do it, of course, and I really don't think that after death all my problems will be over (I believe in reincarnation, so I'd just come back as a giant tropical cockroach), but it's tempting to think so, since I can't PROVE that after death my problems WOULDN'T be over. When you live with this amount of mental pain, it's really tempting to end it all, and in the process go after those who you think ruined your life. I note that I'm not alone in thinking this way, since we've had three suicide missions by disgruntled citizens against the federal govt this year. Even worse, those people are being called heroes by many in the far right. Die in a blaze of glory and be a martyr-you've gotta admit it's tempting.

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M.