My brother told me last night that my stepfather's dad, Len passed away yesterday morning. He had been ill for a while with lung disease or something, no one knew for sure, however his death was still quite a shock. My mother has kind of barred me from being part of her or stepdad's family so I feel really crap right now. I didn't know him very well, but I knew him well enough to be sad. I didn't tell my brother I was sad because he would probably think it was weird or somehting. I can't talk to my mum either, she's turned her phone off and won't ring. I feel so left out all the time, I just wish that they would let me be part of their family. This is also why I am upset. I feel like I am selfish because I am still thinking of myself even though this has happened. I know we all grieve differenlty but I still finding it hard. *sigh* I just need some comforting right now. I am so upset. 
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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite

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