Feeling like crap

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Sometimes I just feel I've had enough of myself and the world and today is one of those days. It happens more or less every time I go out. It's always those weird, untimely smiles when I probably leave people wondering what is wrong with me. It's my blank stare at people when I don't know if I should speak or if I should wait for them to speak first. It's my awkward, clumsy gait (several people have told me my way of walking is peculiar), which makes me feel like I'm trying to move a body that is not completely under my control. I have to pay a lot of attention in order not to trip on something which means I have to walk looking down and this, in turn, makes some people think that I'm just pretending I didn't see them and because of this I sometimes try to walk looking around which makes me feel even clumsier. It's also my family that just thinks I'm lazy and can't seem to understand that I'm just not like everyone else. That's the main reason I want to get an official diagnosis, but there are no specialists in my area and I don't have the money to go get a diagnosis somewhere else. And I also think I shouldn't bother about any of this but I just can't help it. And I could go on and on.

Yeah, wrong planet indeed...

Sorry guys, I just had to vent a bit.

i hear ya, Neto. join the club here.

I have days, like that. People just look at me and try to study me. Some look away, and I know they do it, out of pity, just because I'm not dressed like the girl, next door. People are funny.