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<First conversation I've had with her in a few months, she moved far away due to her mum getting bullied in town. She's the only girl I've ever loved and she and I both know our love for eachother.>
(05:49:38 PM) Me: Hi
(05:49:49 PM) Her: hello how are you
(05:50:01 PM) Me: The usual, you?
(05:50:21 PM) Her: happy extremeely happy.
(05:50:26 PM) Me: Ooh, what happened?
(05:50:58 PM) Her: i met a realy nice guy
(05:51:01 PM) Me: Awesome
(05:51:03 PM) Me: Hook up with him.
(05:51:06 PM) Me:
<Heartbroken.>
(05:51:20 PM) Her: 'hook up'??? whats that?
(05:51:27 PM) Me: Ugh, getting together with them.
(05:51:44 PM) Her: whats that?
(05:51:51 PM) Me: Uhh
(05:51:57 PM) Me: Boyfriend/girlfriend/whatever
<I meant date, I'm an idiot.>
(05:53:02 PM) Me: I dunno, I'm kinda lovesick.
(05:53:03 PM) Me: XD
(05:53:27 PM) Her: wtf
(05:53:32 PM) Me: ?
(05:53:44 PM) Me: What?
(05:54:31 PM) Her: why are you lovesick??
<Because I love her and it hurts talking to her.>
(05:54:36 PM) Me: Long story
(05:54:55 PM) Her: oh
(05:55:19 PM) Me: I'm basically a ticking time bomb right now, anyway.
(05:55:28 PM) Me: How's life for you going?
(05:57:08 PM) Her: well i am going to talk to someone bout my depression potential maybe.. uhh i am not cutting my wrists anymore every time i try i can't cause i cant think of losing my boyfriend.
(05:57:23 PM) Me: Yeah
(05:57:28 PM) Me: That's great
(05:57:37 PM) Me: Don't sink as low as I am, you won't be able to come back out.
(05:57:50 PM) Me: And great for not cutting your wrists.
(05:58:06 PM) Me: The girl I was lovesick over was actually the only reason I kept going for 6 or so years
<I've loved her for 6 years.>
(05:58:28 PM) Me: So you have something to stop yourself from doing something idiotic
(05:58:37 PM) Her: who?
(05:58:49 PM) Her: kept you going?
<Her.>
(05:59:22 PM) Me: It doesn't matter anymore, she moved far away and now I'm just alone in this town, clinically depressed.
<She left town, she's far away and I miss her dearly.>
(05:59:45 PM) Her: yeah well im alone and bored.! beat that!
(06:00:08 PM) Me: Hah.
(06:00:11 PM) Her: and my boy friend keeps talking computers... i dont understand him!
(06:00:26 PM) Me: Your boyfriend sucks with computers compared to me
(06:00:46 PM) Her: yeah right!
(06:01:02 PM) Me: I'm insane by the way
(06:01:07 PM) Me: Just thought you'd like to know that
(06:01:18 PM) Her: yay for insanity im not alone.
(06:01:40 PM) Me: Do you daydream of killing yourself, shooting up schools, beating people to death and planning how to do it?
(06:01:48 PM) Her: yes
(06:01:50 PM) Me: Do you know why God doesn't exist?
(06:02:11 PM) Her: cause im going to hell... i ate him
(06:02:15 PM) Me: Haha
(06:02:23 PM) Me: There is no heaven or hell or God
(06:02:56 PM) Her: unfortunate side effect of hanging with my bf.... best comeback if someone asks where something is ... i ate it
(06:03:05 PM) Me: Your boyfriend is a jerk
(06:03:09 PM) Me: Does he wear a wifebeater
(06:03:11 PM) Her: btw there is a hell.. im going there.. its called school
(06:03:29 PM) Me: I use to think hell was a firey place
(06:03:42 PM) Me: Then I thought hell was where you weren't, and now I know that hell is anywhere where I am
(06:03:45 PM) Me: Because I hate myself
(06:03:57 PM) Me: I honestly can't think of anything I don't regret
(06:04:39 PM) Her: hell is my life.... bouys are a**holes ...i regret that i didnt tell the nicest guy in the world that i loved him.
<I think she means me as the nicest guy in the world based on previous chats, but I can't confirm it for this instance.>
(06:05:08 PM) Me: You shouldn't regret never telling people you loved them
(06:05:12 PM) Me: Because all people are a**holes
(06:05:22 PM) Her: even...me?
(06:05:44 PM) Me: I don't have the energy to explain why you aren't.
<I'm too depressed to make her feel better, I have no energy.>
(06:05:52 PM) Me: But yeah
<Begins to change topic, transitioning with 'But yeah'. Starts typing.>
(06:06:12 PM) Her: ... im gonna take my chat offline now..
<She goes offline. My messenger doesn't update, so I think she's still on.>
(06:06:27 PM) Me: I didn't say you were
(06:06:32 PM) Me: 'But yeah' is my way of changing topic
(06:06:35 PM) Me: It was out of context
(06:06:36 PM) Me: :\
<She's offline on Facebook chat.>
<I feel heartbroken, I hate myself more than usual and I hurt her.>

'But yeah' is an out of context topic change. What do you even care what I think? What if I did think you were an a**hole? How would that matter? Nobody cares about my opinions, not even I.

SHUT UP YOU STUPID BOY!
IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL DONT WORRY!

You obviously don't feel how I do, as you have a boyfriend.

<I said, ">_<">
(07:02:30 PM) Her: go away
<I apologized and told her I didn't mean that she was an a**hole.>
(07:02:49 PM) Her: go awasy
<I said something like "IF THIS IS JUST SOME KIND OF WAY TO BREAK OFF THIS FRIENDSHIP INSTEAD OF BEING BLUNT, SAY SO".>
(07:03:27 PM) Her: i dont... your just making me cry so go away!
<I can't remember what I put here. I may of told her that I had feelings to.>
(07:04:04 PM) Her: fiine
<I told her that I've cried over her for 6 years and loved or missed her.>
(07:04:53 PM) Her: well im sorry i skrewed up ur life
<She then defriended me from Facebook.>

If she defriended you, then accept it. She's probably feeling a little overwhelmed by your feelings, and if she's in a relationship she won't want to complicate things.

I'm sorry, but there's nothing I can suggest other than take a step back and breath.

(06:05:08 PM) Me: You shouldn't regret never telling people you loved them
(06:05:12 PM) Me: Because all people are a**holes
(06:05:22 PM) Her: even...me?
(06:05:44 PM) Me: I don't have the energy to explain why you aren't.
<I'm too depressed to make her feel better, I have no energy.>
(06:05:52 PM) Me: But yeah

Well, I'm feeling a little better.

Have a great day, and you have my support, friend.