Fear for the future

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I'm so worried that I won't be able to cope with whatever job I find when I'm finished college. I get so stressed so easily and meltdowns are usually every fortnight. I'm worried that if I want to have kids that I won't be able to cope with looking after them on top of everything else. Day-to-day activities get to me and it's pathetic and I'm really worried. I can only cope if I see nobody apart from my boyfriend and occasionally my best friend, keep as much quiet around me as possible, feel in control every day by not having to accommodate other people's demands... I wish I could just DO everything every day requires me to do without getting stressed by things like how noisy washing up is, how hard it is to change from working on stuff in college to going home for lunch to returning to college after... I force a lot of it and it gets me into meltdown easily... I just feel a bit pathetic... I know that it's not my fault and I try my best with everything I do, and I'm trying to use as many coping strategies as I can, but even at my toughest and when I'm pushing myself hardest and feeling at my best, I'm still slower than everyone around me. I take ages to do anything and the more I force myself to try function at the same pace as others, the more rapidly I'll bring on a meltdown. I get so sick of having Asperger's sometimes even though there are some things about it that make me glad to have it. I'd like to get rid of the bad stuff and keep the good stuff. Pity it's not possible...