I used to be very happy with myself. I thought I was pretty with a personality to match,I felt under control, nobody could damage my self esteem.
Turns out, my self esteem is very damaged right now. I used to be a girly girl now I feel like a worthless piece of s**t. No attractive boys want to date me. I used to have an imaginary perfect boyfriend with long platinum blonde hair and a skinny, frail body...a true beauty that could be just mine. He'd love me no matter what. He'd be so nurturing and sweet almost doll-like. He'd go everywhere with me and protect and help me and make me truley happy again.
Why can't I be beautiful like him?