I have a curse on me

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I don't know what I've done or why me but I have a literal curse on me...I have no luck whatsoever, no matter what it is. The last year or so has been really hard on me and I keep trying to forget the past and stay positive but my luck gets worse with every passing day.

First of all let me say that I have anger issues and I am seeing a therapist right now...I know I have issues...I broke my hand punching the wall and broke my big toe by kicking the couch multiple times.

My anger comes from the inability to have a relationship with a girl...even if its a friend...Being almost 19, I'm also sexually frustrated as you can tell, even more so because my parents and sister constantly remind me that I don't have a gf and they know it pisses me off, even if they are trying to be nice.

Anyway...If I didn't have a cast on my hand right now I would of broke my hand again for sure because of really a petty thing, but it just pisses me off.

Most of these examples I put are petty things, some pretty bad, and one that's just horrible...

///Take in part that some of these stories are samples from the first 12 days of October (Marked with ***)///

***Tonight - I lost a Fantasy Football game the only way I could and that is if my opponents' defense (Jets) had a turnover touchdown...what happened with 1 min. left...an interception touchdown. I also had 2 of my players get injured after one of his got injured and there were about 7 other things that if just 1 of them went different....I would have won.

^Now that's the petty one but you can see why I'm pissed...what are the chances right?

Last Week and Many Times Before - Maybe I shouldn't gamble or play poker but everytime I walk into a casino I get screwed out of money. I have lost around 1k in money playing cards over a year (big deal to me) and I know you guys will say it's a casino, you must not be good...but it's the luck I have when all of the control is in the hands of the dealer...and this isn't blackjack were talking about, you don;t play against the house, just other people so the casino doesn't care who wins...for example many times my opp. would need 1 card out of like 35-40 to come out (around 3%) and it has happened over and over.

Then last month, I lost $900 on a slot machine b/c I started with $50 and ran out...a lady sits down, 2 spins later $900. I was the only 1 not winning as the whole row of 6 machines had at least $300 on each machine. When I sat down, the machine did nothing.

^So this is more of bad luck that's worse b/c I lost out on a bunch of money

The Job Hunt - This is by far the most frustrating thing besides the girl issues...I'm getting attacked by my mom daily about not having a job, my family thinks I have a problem, that I'm lazy, or I'm not trying hard enough...the fact is I am...The days I'm home from college I go out and fill out applications, talk to managers, even have interviews. I actually was gonna get hired at a bank, but they could never get a hold of my only previous employer, even after I asked if he could contact them. [Didn't leave on bad terms]...My friend's sister who hasn't had a job ever (she's 17, and good looking) got 2 jobs in the span of a week and she just started trying (probably her looks, it's not EOE for me, and both of the places she has a job is where I put in applications, recently) Hell I've even been lied to about which location was hiring since I had 2 of the same convince store in my area.

^This is bad and kind of spans over a few months but this next one is the worst...

***So I have been telling you about my girl troubles right...I feel like I was making baby steps as for talking and befriending girls but this next story tops it all...I've been in school for a month now and I was really getting along with this girl in my class that I just met...nothing big, just joked about the teacher and talked about the class...I made her laugh a couple times. Anyway she was a beautiful girl with a nice personality and I was so happy...So over last weekend I was really considering asking for her number...what do you think happened over the weekend, well I used past tense so you can only guess...

I really don't have to say more...but really, what can I do...it's been like this for almost 2 years and what's worse is that I get teased about finally having a breakthrough, it's like someone's playing a trick on me. It's 1 step forward and 2 steps back...I think you guys get what I mean...I go through days now thinking, "What's gonna go wrong for me next?" and it's all the little things that bother me...it all builds up and then something big happens...How do I stay positive anymore?

Thanks to anyone who reads and comments, I appreciate it

Well mine didnt die so I dont want to seem crude, but mine did tell my boss she feared I might hurt her. Sometimes the farther you go or get isnt always the best situation. The grass isnt greener on the otherside, it just looks that way. Granted, plenty of people we see everyday have a "decent life" and we wonder why? It seems the only reason is because they dont care.

They figure they're going to succeed, and you know what, 7/10 times they do. We KNOW we're going to fail and guess what happens, we fail. You dont want to hear it but you're thinking too much. There is no god out there that is so cruel to make such trivial coincidences happen, in order to worsen your mental status. Bad luck is just what happens to those who arent prepared. And this isnt coming from someone any better than you. Im 25 and life hasn't "gotten better".

But you gotta stop thinking the worlds out to get you. Its a hopeless inevitability if you believe it. People dont like whiners, ask yourself, do you like whiners? NO, you dont. Quit crying, and making excuses. It wasnt your day a couple times. And dont try to one up me, I promise you'll be sorry thinking your life's been worse. It can get a lot WORSE.

I've had my own curse, this year. First of all, my queen bee of a supervisor starts to single me out and bully me, rasing her voice at me, to walk around the parking lots, faster than I can. I phone her # the same night, telling her in a polite way, that I quit. I went through the next three weeks in a state of anxiety, anticipating the meeting that was to take place, between my job specialist, supervisor, boss and I and listening to my Kinks 'Word of Mouth' album over again.

The second thing that happened is that my ex friend, Teresa had written off Dean, Barb and I. That's what caused me to start undereating. That undereating has hopefully come to a stop, as of today.

Than my mum went in for surgery. I was worried sick abou her, for the three weeks that it takes a person to recover from an operation. I was drinking Slim-Fast, because I was too upset to eat.

2010 was the year that The Kinks were going to get back together, to record some music. The original 4 members. Not any more. Pete Quaife passed away on June, 23rd. I found out on the 27th. I made the mistake of telling my mum about the news, expecting sympathy and empathy that she never gave me. I did forgive her, and I was able to stay at her place over the three day Thanksgiving weekend, because of it.

So you thought that bad luck happens in threes? Wrong! My three favourite staff people at my clubhouse quit and moved on, within a week. My bottom lip got a little bigger, and I look even more like Mick Avory. My looks aren't the problem. The problem is that one of those staff people was my job specialist. She was my go to person, if I was having problems, at work!

I just hope that by the grace of God that I begin to have some good luck, for once.

Your inability to have a relationship with a girl comes from your anger.
There; I fixed it.

Sorry, I know that is simplistic of me, but I couldn't resist. Seriously, though. You won't know what keeps you from forming friendships with women before you fix your anger issues. Women will pick up on it, even if you don't act very aggressively by your standards right there and then, and they will avoid you as is right because people wit hanger issues are dangerous.

As for the rest of it... I'm sorry, tough luck. But that's life and everyone have these kinds of tough breaks at the very least now and then. Your life sounds normal.
If you are complaining about a curse, please have some perspective. You are complaining you couldn't go on flirting with this girl; she got killed. Which one has it worst off?

lmfao...yeah a couple times...try like a couple hundred times. I hate to b***h and whine a moan but when every break doesn't fall your way for a long time, you start to question why this is happening...I know I don't have the worst luck out of every single person, because I have a roof over my head and I'm healthy (well, physically) but I'm sick of it...and I knew this is what I was gonna get so I shouldn't of even posted this

Amazing... I feel the exact same way. I try to not take risks, to do everything in a way so that I can bypass the importance of luck as much as possible. Before I moved to Canada, I did not feel like this. I think I was rather lucky back then. Ever since then, though, my luck just went away. It really makes me hate life sometimes, with all of the other things I have to get through. I'm very clumsy, so I often hurt myself often whenever I get up and do something, and sometimes I accumulate so much stress that I cannot bring myself to do anything at all and later on I end up having to clean up the messes I've made earlier, literally and figuratively. Sometimes I trip on something and hurt myself and just break out crying because life just feels too much to deal with at that point.

hey, anyone who thinks they got something to b***h about(particularly JP88)... how lifes not fair, or fun or worth it.....

FRACTURE YOUR F*&()%G NECK AND SPINE SERVING YOUR COUNTRY(so it hurts even just to breathe), then STILL get disrespected by any and everyone you meet. Have the same problems anyone else has on here, and then some. WHAT DO I SAY????

Quit F*&^n crying! Life sucks, so what. Either deal with it or yourself(AKA SUICIDE). But dont expect ANYTHING FROM ANYONE, the least being pity or sympathy. NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU, EXCEPT YOURSELF AND THE PEOPLE YOU GIVE A GOOD ENOUGH REASON TO!

Although the rest of your problems seemed either petty, or easily avoidable,
(especially the casino one )

that last one was neither, & truly tragic.
i'm sorry for your loss .

i have almost a similar situation.
My current (& first) GF currently is dealing with cancer right now.
First love of my life, and then she gets cancer only months after we start dating, a potentially deadly disease. i'm just praying that the chemotherapy is effective...

Okay so based on what you said here I don't feel sorry at all that your paralyzed...does that sound right??? This is a support forum...I'm looking for support...I realize people have it worse than me, hell people have it worse than you too...I think I made it clear that I don't expect things to fall in place...I give it 110% whether it's looking for a job, trying to befriend a girl, etc... and so far I have not succeeded yet. So I come here to get some support to get me through the dark days...sorry dude it sucks you are in that situation...but I guess I shouldn't be feeling sorry for you.

Thats the difference between us jp88, I didnt, nor dont come online to cry about things. At first, I let you know the truth and my opinion, then said, DONT TRY TO ONE UP ME(AKA A WARNING). Said it can get a lot worse...

AS IN, Dont make it seem like yours is the worst life ever. I wouldnt be the first or even the last person to say my life's CLOSE to the worst. But you need to come online and tell everyone how there's a "curse" on you and speak contritely about petty instances. NOT ONE SHRED OF SOMETHING WORTH EVALUATING. SOMETHING WORTH TALKING ABOUT. SOMETHING WE COULD HELP YOU WITH. OR even something that seems remotely worth empathizing. Fantasy football, gambling and not talking to a girl that you had a crush on. Im sorry, we all deal with the last one(or a guy for girls), but you shouldnt be wasting money you dont have and fantasy football is a damn game thats not even worth the rest of this sentence...(although real football is)

And unlike you, I DONT WANT YOUR(OR ANYONE ELSE'S) PITY, or sympathy, or anything really. Im just givin the facts, PLENTY OF PEOPLE HAVE IT WORSE THAN YOU. GET A PAIR AND USE EM. But no, you dont want to heed a simple message of caution. DONT ONE UP ME(goes for everyone, dont one up anyone, for better or worse). You played with the bull so you got the horns, tough luck, so goes life...

Notice, I didnt ask for anything from you JP88, other than to quit crying about nonsense. I just told ya how it is and all you came back with was more whine, piss, and moan. DEAL WITH IT.

WOW what a threat...ONE UP ONE UP ONE UP...what else you got I can go on all day...your the only one in this post that has been disrepectful...some supporter you are, just leave...This forum called "The Haven" is "for those times when you're feeling blue and need to get a little help from your friends." I came on here and told what was bothering me and asked for advice....you obviously are in the wrong forum...and I don't think you can read either...

WTF did I just say in my last post... and I also mentioned in my OP how some examples were petty...do you want me to tell you about everything? I'll continue on...how some of my family died, my 3-yr nephew has cancer...but I didn't because I didn't want anyone to feel bad for me, I just wanted advice on how to stay positive, I wanted some encouraging words, not this b*ll$hit.