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20 Oct 2010, 5:00 pm

i feel so low and nothing is helping.
i've just cried for 4 hours straight and self-harmed and it hasn't helped.

i'm usually good at putting the past behind me but all i can do is think about bad things that have happened
and it hurts and i can't cope.

i don't even know why i'm posting. no one can help.

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20 Oct 2010, 5:42 pm

what bad things happened?

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20 Oct 2010, 5:48 pm

In my past?
Detailed in other posts but basically abuse of pretty much every type.
It's all i can think about right now.
Why would all those people hurt me?

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20 Oct 2010, 5:52 pm

Here's a hug. :O)

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20 Oct 2010, 6:03 pm

CockneyRebel wrote:

Here's a hug. :O)

The fact someone would even take time to type that actually means a lot.
Thank you.

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20 Oct 2010, 6:27 pm

{{{{{awkward aspie hugs}}}}}

is your boyfriend still away?

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20 Oct 2010, 6:29 pm

hyperlexian wrote:

{{{{{awkward aspie hugs}}}}}

is your boyfriend still away?

He was back - but he's out for tonight with his friends.
It's so stupid, i can't cope if he's not here.
I'm just here alone with some vodka. I can't tell him i feel this way. I don't want to ruin his fun.
He'll maybe be back in an hour. I hope. But he won't be happy because he'll have to help me clean up all this icky blood.

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20 Oct 2010, 6:35 pm

emlion wrote:

hyperlexian wrote:

{{{{{awkward aspie hugs}}}}}

is your boyfriend still away?

yeah, i don't self-harm but i get extremely emotional and inconsolable. my husband often has to talk me down. i used to get very upset when my husband would go out with friends because i felt on a certain level like he was abandoning me, even though consciously i knew he wasn't. it helped me to finally get married, though i'm not a big fan of marriage, because then i finally felt like he was totally committed to me. then i improved a lot, but i can still get pretty bad.

it must have been hard to have him barely home (for a few days right?) then going out with friends, huh?

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20 Oct 2010, 6:37 pm

hyperlexian wrote:

emlion wrote:

hyperlexian wrote:

{{{{{awkward aspie hugs}}}}}

is your boyfriend still away?

Yes, it is. I feel so stupid and clingy with him. But he never gets angry about it.
He almost didn't go tonight but like an idiot i said 'no it'll be fine, i'll be okay.' - and i'm not. again.
he hates it when i self harm.

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20 Oct 2010, 8:06 pm

((((hug)))) from me, too.

Take care.

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20 Oct 2010, 8:29 pm

(((( hug ))))

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20 Oct 2010, 8:54 pm

(hug)(hug)(hug) --->>> Since three is supposed to be a "magic number".

Basically, people hurt other people either to make themselves feel better by pretending they're superior, or just because they're @$$***** and enjoy causing suffering. Either way, what they really prove is that the others, the ones who aren't like them, are the superior ones.

Note that I'm not saying all aspies are superior to all NTs. I'm saying that if you don't hurt other people without a very good reason, you're doing a lot better than most folks ever manage.

And none of it really helps. I know. I've been treated like a public toilet most of my life.

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20 Oct 2010, 9:09 pm

theWanderer wrote:

Basically, people hurt other people either to make themselves feel better by pretending they're superior, or just because they're @$$***** and enjoy causing suffering. Either way, what they really prove is that the others, the ones who aren't like them, are the superior ones.

+100! I hope you feel better soon.

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21 Oct 2010, 3:43 am

I feel much better this morning.
Thank you all. You're all such good peoples.

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21 Oct 2010, 7:40 am

That is great to hear. I need a hug too.

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21 Oct 2010, 9:03 am

luvsterriers wrote:

That is great to hear. I need a hug too.

Huggles for you, you lovely person. (:
*huuug*

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