Just felt like venting a little because its kinda putting me on edge, moreso than normal. So first thing was on tuesday I was home for dinner that day and during dinner I brought up the fact I am still looking to be diagnosed because she said she could help me with getting an appointment through her insurance or whatever......But then of course I went on to bring up that I want to apply for SSI again and being the type who blurts things out she said 'why so then you and your boyfriend can live on SSI."(yeah I am dating a guy whos not in college and not working he's on disability).....she said she was joking but it still kind of offended me. Next I feel like shes going to start complaining at me for spending so much time with my boyfriend.....I mean I'm 22, I have every right to hang out with who I choose as often as I would like.
Then yesterday when I was at his house......she called me to ask if I could walk to my brothers school and pick him up and bring him home. So I asked her for the name of the school so I could look it up on google maps since I am not quite sure where it is from our house.....and she got all annoyed over nothing I mean I am a visual learner its easier for me to look at a map to find where I am going then try to figure out verbal directions. But yeah as it turned out I was not going to be home from college in time to go get him anyways but the whole phone conversation left me feeling quite angry and frusterated.
Uhh, I just hate how most of my family especially my mom knows nothing about me and tries to psychologically manipulate me.
Oh and kind of off topic but I am kinda concerned about my dad, last time I talked to him I garantee he was either really high on drugs....or has gone insane. So yeah, I don't even know if he's alive right now honestly......guess I should try and get ahold of him and see how he's doing.
20 Oct 2011, 4:56 pm
