I'm developing an opiate addiction again.

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Started hanging out with the wrong people and now I'm diving into old habits. The worst part it I can see it coming a mile away. It happens every summer, and now that I'm extremely poor and heartbroken it isn't helping. I need to find better ways of coping, and I need to find a better way to manage my stress. Anyone go through anything similar?

I understand completely. While I've never developed the physical addiction(or maybe all this sweating is not due to summer, but to lack of oxies), the mental addiction is there.
I've been buying, crushing, and snorting oxycodone for a year. I could have had a new car and computer with the money I made from work. Maybe a new bass violin, and a PS3 to boot. But it all went up my nose, since I use at least once a week.
With oxies, I can have a cheerful conversation with my parents, whom I normally can't stand. Tasks don't seem as overwhelming to me, and even the itch and post-nasal drip that come with snorting them feels and tastes good.
I contemplated running off with my boyfriend, who is against my drug use, to his area, where I wouldn't know ANY stoners, but decided not to at this point.
As I'm sure you know, getting off them isn't just some simple matter of willpower. If everything came to that, we wouldn't be posting here about our social and sensory troubles. I can't tell you anything wise, but I'm willing to listen to someone's advice if they have it.

=( Stop hanging out with them? I know that is not exactly easy, but if its the only way, you should really consider it.

I know what its like, been there, it sucks... In my case the only thing that kept me away from alcohol was not hanging out with those friends anymore, and no alcohol. (When I start drinking I go insane and there is no controlling me.) And yes, I know summer makes it worse, just try new hobbies, and you might meet some new friends there that might be better influences. Try something outdoors while it is still nice out! =)

I'll see what I can do about the friend. I really can't physically afford an addiction like this. But the thing is that it perfects my personality in a way. It takes away the deficiencies for a while but I hate it none the less. I might talk to my doctor about suboxone since it's good for destroying habits. My problem is that I'm medium functioning so it's so hard for me to find work and even when I do it's impossible for me to just go and do it. I just never know what to say and how to organize myself. I even told my friend I had a problem but he just romanticizes it which I used to do.

I used to have a codeine/dihydrocodeine habit brought on by depression/insomnia. I started picking it up again this spring/summer and I stopped recently. I didn't pick up the physical addiction this time - still a bit mentally addicted, though.

I don't think it perfects your personality. What are these deficiencies you talk about? I can understand how opiates manage stress, mood and sensory issues (which can all be managed in other ways) but I don't see how they improve personality.

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