Support/Advice?

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Where do I start?
One of the problems is that sometimes I just feel so lonely but I find it so difficult with people that I have somewhat withdrawn recently from WP and feel the need to from other things because I always feel such a nuisance and am so afraid of annoying people, but I just can’t seem to get rid of that fear. I'm tempted to withdraw completely because I feel I am making a mess of everything but I know that's not the answer in the long run although it seems appealing now. I feel confused and actually afraid to voice any strong opinion because I risk just being a big contradiction. I am also particularly sensitive to rejection aswell which is one reason why I have just tended to avoid people for a long time.

Another reason is that I tend to take on the feelings of other people (or maybe more accurately how I think they feel or how I might feel in their situation) which is such a big problem because I find my emotions so difficult. That’s one of the reasons I am hesitant to even say any of this because if anyone else is the same I don’t want to make them feel bad by reading all my problems, but I feel I need to vent. Maybe just writing about it might help.

It has become apparent to me that I just don't really know who I am, I seem to just see myself in terms of the problems I have.

My issues will always inhibit me I fear from making anything close to what might in any way be considered friendships, although recently it has become clear to me that I’m confused about what the term even means.

I have deliberated over this now for a few hours now and I know I will regret posting this at some point. It seems I’m a hypocrite aswell having posted the other day that others shouldn’t feel guilty when feeling bad.

Sorry I have tried to condense this as much as I could because when I started writing it just sort of all came out. I feel I should just say I don't feel suicidal or anything just rather down and confused I guess.

I don’t know but if anyone possibly has any advice or anything it would be much appreciated. Thankyou.

Or maybe I was just stupid for posting here when I feel so vulnerable.

I kind of know how you feel. I try to see it as a chance to learn and adapt. If what I say is offensive or hurtful, I can avoid saying such things in the future. I learn, and as I learn, I improve, and perhaps one day everything will be fine.

^^Thanks for your reply Artros.

But that's the thing I am always so careful not to say anything to offend but somehow still I fear it. I know that really it is a deep rooted fear of being disliked.
It would be easier not to say anything to anyone but that's no way to live. That's why I am trying to find a way to get over it.

I definitely understand how you're feeling. I have this same problem; I want to make friends and converse with people "like everyone else" but there are a few things keeping me from doing that. One of them is fear of how people perceive me and I also go out of my way to avoid conflict. Even on WP I tend to keep my thoughts to myself.

I wish I had advice for you, but I'm still in the process of getting help myself. Anyway, just know that you're not alone.

Yes Ambiguity I am the same with worrying about how people see me. Also with friendship the only thing I know about it is that to count it has to be mutual and I think that with such low self esteem it is hard to believe that anyone would actually want to be friends so really I guess it's just self sabotage.
Thanks though for replying it helps a little to know I am not alone, I hope it might have helped you to know that aswell.
Just need to find some way out of it.

You need to find somewhere to start. Or, rather, someone to start with. Maybe a friend or a family member. You can always write down what you want to say and then give it to them. I always find that starting such a conversation is the most difficult part, and that it carries on afterwards.

Just talk. Everything in life is about experience and repetition. I have awful motor skills, but through enough practice I've still managed to learn how to play the piano. I have bad social skills, but through enough practice I can fake most of it.

^^Thanks Artros, you're right.
It's just trying to resist the big temptation to climb back into my shell completely at the moment.

Good luck with the piano, I play it myself and know it can be a comfort.