I've been on Luvox for almost two weeks now and it has it's pluses and minuses. The pluses are that I'm only sleeping 6/7 hours a day (the first time in maybe 4 or 5 years I've slept less than 10 hours a day or had irregular sleep patterns) and that during the day my mood is good. The minuses are that, I still feel the depression at the end of the day when the pill wears off before I go to sleep, and also I'm eating like a mad man and have put on 8 pounds. Also that I seem to just think about sex 24/7 again (before you give me the "every guy does" talk most guys at least have other interests besides women and playoff football and have a hobby/hobbies/other interests.)
Being depressed, minus the suicidal thoughts, was arguably better. What I mean is, I wasn't eating as much and craved a girlfriend, not recreational sex. Now I'm messaging any decent looking woman on free dating sites, hoping to get a date and "feel out" if fooling around or sex is imminent. (Compared to a month ago when I just wanted a compatible girlfriend inside and out.)
Now I'm not doubting, there is a middle ground. (Since this isn't adult - and I don't think it belongs there since it isn't purely sexual in nature - I'll keep it at PG.) But what I mean is, obviously I can want a relationship and crave casual physical intimacy at the same time...but it just bothers me, that maybe that's all there is to me? You give me a happy pill and I'm uber horny and trying to find a girl that's relatively easy?
19 Jan 2012, 1:34 am
