PTSD really sucks...rant.

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FML!.........I hate PTSD, to think I would have still had my enjoyment of reading and awesome ability to to focus on reading and be able to get through half that college homework I would have if i was still going this semester done within a couple hours rather then a period of days. But no why the hell should I be able to do that......it's better when I get no enjoyment from reading and cannot even focus on it well enough for what needs to be done.

and people wanna talk to me about not trying hard enough? well you try and succeed at college which involves lots of reading you cannot do effectively all because some a**hole with a gun came in my school shot someone and screwed up my mind more than it already was. All I wanted to do was deny it........so yeah I went to college, I didn't tell anyone I hated reading and could hardly focus on it since that happened I just thought I could push myself through it and get that back but all I did was make it worse by trying so damn hard not to dissappoint people.

sorry for the long rant but this is what's been on my mind yesterday and today and playing a huge role on my mood.

Hey Sweetleaf,
yes, it is awful. I have had a really bad case for years, although it is getting better now. I am sorry for what happened to you, it sounds terrifying. If you need to rant more or just want to talk about it, feel free to send me a PM.

Vigorous exercise helps with PTSD.

Ride a bike HARD until you feel like you got no more strength left. Then turn around and ride back home.

Or swim laps. Learn to swim if you can't already.

Those are proven solutions, along with a healthy diet. No fats or sugars! Especially sugar.

You need to stick with this and make yourself do it for a few weeks... and then you'll never want to stop.

Don't let anyone give you drugs. There are no drugs that help PTSD, despite what so called experts tell you.

I probably have PTSD too and have recently seen a psychiatrist for help.
I now have to go the anger and anxiety management for it.
I was beaten up every day by a football player and my teachers did nothing about it.
My passion was art and people thought that I was pretty talented. That's now gone.
I can't draw or paint without feeling depressed,angry and worthless.
I probably would have went to a good art school if this athlete wouldn't have beaten me everyday in high school.

I imagine that your PTSD is much worse than mine.
The flashbacks could make anyone go mad.
The worse thing anyone could ever do to another person is to destroy their passions.
That appears to have happened to both of us. Hopefully one day you will enjoy reading and I will enjoy drawing again.

I know that a good,long rant can make things feel better for just a moment.

Dilbert, you are right about the exercise but sometimes a mild medication like Prozac can help with the emotions.

You could try GABA supplements... gamma-aminobutyric acid, a non-essential amino acid, it's the brain's natural calming agent. Basically it works by inhibiting the number of neurons that are active at any given time (you can still function normally, but everything is much less overwhelming). I have chronic anxiety and my therapist says I have symptoms of PTSD, although I can't think of anything specific, probably just from trying to figure my way around the world and feeling constantly overwhelmed/inadequate. Anyway, it really helps me, and they are what I'd consider affordable (I just bought 200 capsules on Amazon for $15). Don't get any that contain L-Tyrosine as well, while I guess this works on anxiety for some people, it breaks down into a chemical that causes migraines and it definitely did that to me.

ptsd? post traumatic stress disorder... *shruggs*

whatever it is sounds bad, sounds like the same feeling i get when i see mmo mentioned at all. i go berserk at any mention of those. but the way i see anything is i don't force myself to do anything.

which is probably why i don't do much.

was it the gunshot that triggered this? because my dad shot his guns around me in the freaking mountains. but after that i now am obsessed with guns and weapons.

if that's that thing soldiers get during war times, damn i wish you luck.

oh i think i have something like that, only mine is balloons. some point when i was young i don't remember, a balloon popped right next to my ear. i think i was 4 or something, i don't actually remember the event that triggered it which is probably why i can't get past it. but i'm scared to death of balloons now. i see one and i turn crazy, i'm always afraid they will pop at any time. i'm not kidding either. it's a stupid fear but i can't get past it.

all my birthdays have had no balloons since then, and if i went someones house with balloons i was petrified the whole time with my ears plugged, praying for the time to pass faster. and it's odd i can remember other stuff i did when i was young but that whole event is just gone. i wager it was to trammatic for me at that time and i got memory loss to help my mind deal with it.

but it left me with a fear that never ends and forgot what triggered it so i can't get past it. my mom told me what happened but i don't recall the event at all. i take her word for it because obviously she remembers.

at least you know the event that triggered yours i don't and the chances of getting past it are very slim.

I don't really know what to say other than I suffer from it too and know how paralyzing it can be.

Moreso than even the Asperger's I feel like it is my Sisyphus rock.