What bothers me the most...

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What bothers me the most about finding out about my position on the spectrum is the fact that my most cherished and wonderful experience in life can be seen as nothing else than a symptom of a disorder. I'm talking about special interests.

They make me so happy. The best times of my life coincided with some interests I was extremely passionate about. Special interests helped me cure my depression and anxiety, helped me choose a career that I love, motivated me enough to fight my social anxiety and withdrawal, kept me abreast as I had to face losses and ilnesses and generally made life bearable and livable, even at its worst. I've had them ever since and they made life so interesting, so worth living. I thought nothing but good about them. Yes, I'd noticed that other people didn't have them, but I believed that we were just a bit different and they surely didn't know what they were missing, by not being passionate about anything.

I cannot reconcile with the idea that all this is just a symptom and that it can be looked down by the world because of that. It feels as if the very core of my being is very wrong, very not human. I feel so so down about it...

Anybody ever experienced anything similar?

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Probably 75% Aspie, 25% NT... and 100% ADHD

Aspie-quiz results:
Aspie score: 138 of 200 / NT score: 78 of 200 => Very likely an Aspie.

Yes.
It's something sacred, a part of your soul, your very life is invested in it...yet it is being objectified, and belittled thus..

Special interests are a really good thing. Most aspies with jobs have gotten them through their special interest

So what if your special interests are part of your disorder?! !! They add enjoyment to your life and help you cope with life. Although they are a "symptom", they are not a disease, and are not a bad thing, so enjoy them.

People I know envy me my special interests. I think they're one of the best things about AS. I can't imagine NOT having my interests.