I need to stop posting here when I've been drinking...

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…I have a really nasty self-medicating problem at the moment. Coupled with paranoia (I would say well-founded, but taken to excess) and social anxiety. It's not good for me.

I need to go somewhere to have my head straightened out. I want to let it all out.

Ok, then stop posting!

True enough, but I suspect what I say on here is because I'm so insecure and unhappy.

I'm in exactly the same situation.

For you, its drinking. For me, it's energy drinks. I need to stop posting when I'm high. I start stupid threads that I regret later and my self awareness becomes heightened. It's not fun, nor is it funny. I drink energy drinks to deal with my depression. It's also become a way of self-medicating. I've gotten myself down to 1-2 drinks a week.

I do the same, not on here, but on FB and twitter. People must think I am a complete idiot or crazy or stupid. I then delete everything but in the meantime some people see it. Tonight I am not drinking one drop just to avoid posting all over the place. I hate myself these days. I know other people who are doing the same on FB, and when I read their posts I just think "Oh he is hammered" but I fear other people are more judgemental of me than I am of them.