I need a reason, I'm at the edge.

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I need a reason to live, a valid reason, I'm at the end of my rope and I just don't see the point in continuing. I'm this close >< to jumping off a local bridge.

As long as you are alive, there is a chance that things can get better. Once you are dead, game over with no replays.

Sometimes curiosity has kept me alive when nothing else seemed worth living for. I just wanted to see how the whole thing turned out.

so what exactly has you down?

that's not a valid reason

please go and a doctor
or get some anti-depressents
or even find a suside hotline to help

if all fails and you think you might jump off a brige
i seen 1 reply on a thread that might help

phone up the police but don't say anything
they will likely track your call and come round your house
if you do not want to talk write an letter to them saying you have asperges and you think you might kill your self then they might take you to hospatal

again man what is wrong? is good to talk bout things and get them of your chest.

Dog.

Death is scary. It's the unknown that makes it scary. Go to your doctor or psychiatrist and get counselling and/or medication, it's worth it trust me. You need to live for your loved ones and for yourself.

I have a Dr. visit on Monday, my last day of school is on wed, and I see my psychologist on Thursday(she isn't reachable till Monday at the earliest)

Death is no scary, living is scary, it's the unknown that makes it scary.

I don't see why I should continue living, things just get worse...

I know how you feel...I however cannot give you a reason to continue. I mean I have reasons that work for me but those reasons wont necessarily work for others. Honestly you have to find something that means something to you...no matter how ridiculous you think others might find it...just anything. When i attempted suicide I did not succeed and I was into the band Pink Floyd...so for a while I was just thinking 'I can't kill myself till I get all the albums.' well to this day I don't have all their albums and this is intentional. I mean I will own all but one of them when I buy the last one it's over....so I haven't bought the last album. That might sound stupid, but it kind of helps me keep going so I don't care if others find it stupid. I don't know if this helps any, but I've been where you are before.

We need you here.

I really hope there's a coming Spectrum Rights movement, patterned somewhat on Gay Rights but doing things our own way. And what both have in common is the right to authentically be ourselves. And I tell myself it's about engagement, not conformity. That helps some.

Oh and by the way, post more if you need to vent and such...I'll try and be helpful if I can, I just want you to know you're not totally alone in how you feel. And as hard as it is sometimes if you can just find someway to keep going, it can lead to other reasons to keep going and well its possible to make it through. I could recommend some depressing books that may help you see some good in life, but not sure if that would help you but I remember finding reading about trench warfare during WW1 kind of had me thinking I was glad I never had to be a part of that....but I don't know if reading about situations much worse than your own would help any.

17 to 19 was difficult for me. I have patchy skills. In a number of ways, I was more mature than the people my own age, and maybe in some ways less mature.

College was disappointing, there was bullying behavior, people weren't really intellectual.

I wish someone had told me that for those of us on the spectrum, the "easy" jobs are hard, and vice versa. And that might be true for any mature person who's so sincerely interested in doing a good job.

But then I discovered writings of Bertrand Russell, the novels of Irwin Shaw, met a girlfriend at a chess club (which is really unlikely!), and then my late twenties got into political activism.

17 to 19 was difficult for me. I have patchy skills. In a number of ways, I was more mature than the people my own age, and maybe in some ways less mature.

College was disappointing, there was bullying behavior, people weren't really intellectual.

I wish someone had told me that for those of us on the spectrum, the "easy" jobs are hard, and vice versa. And that might be true for any mature person who's so sincerely interested in doing a good job.

But then I discovered writings of Bertrand Russell, the novels of Irwin Shaw, met a girlfriend at a chess club (which is really unlikely!), and then my late twenties got into political activism.

I don't want to go to college, but I'm going to have to.
I wanted to work at a summer camp on the equestrian team, but I got fired from that last summer after I had some problems(I didn't know I had Aspergers then, now I know why I had my problems, like running off into the woods and having a bad meltdown when we lost one our horses to colic) so I don't think I can work there again this summer.... I asked but the camp directer hasn't replied back.... I wanted to work there more then anything....

If you have to go to college I would recommend starting at a community college, why do you have to go to college? I mean I really hate to have to be the one to say this, but if you're thinking college is a good way to escape and that you wont have to deal with the crap anymore when you go.....it's not. Alright man, unless you have something you want to do with college...it is not worth the loans. I mean it's better to work a dead end job without owing back college loans rather then working a dead end job with college loan debt to pay back. So I guess I am just saying be careful of that.