My psychiatrist manipulated me yesterday, the b*tch.
Firstly, I had been through a stressful bus journey before the appointment - I had taken the bus instead of the tram (my Oyster card was charging me adult fares for some reason, and if I go on the bus I don't have to swipe because I get free bus travel because of my concessions). I took a bus that I had never travelled on before. I went through bloody Colliers' Wood - I was panicking inside for most of the journey. I wasn't sure if I had taken the right bus, but was too scared to ask. My psychiatrist saw me "agitated" (as she put it), and even after I explained, she still thought my psychosis was coming back.
Secondly, I was talking about a superstition of mine (I stated the fact that it is a superstition carefully) and she thought I was delusional, and hence the psychosis was coming back.
Lastly, she asked me if I felt nervous around my-age people. I said yes (because I have had a past history of being teased and bullied by people in my area and I also am not confident around these very "cool" people). She then asked me if I avoided them. I said yes, of course. She then went on to say how I am paranoid and she wants to raise my medication?!
Grr.

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I am a partially verbal classic autistic. I am a pharmacology student with full time support.