Genius Aspie, Being Bullied my entire life?

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I have been bullied my entire life since I was a child.
more like a tortured as a war veteran. I guess worse than War veterans since War veterans do not get raped on repeat by random strangers.
I experienced unspeakable levels of Sex crimes, rapes, pornography, sexual harassment from peers and professors, relatives.
I can't think of any woman who probably endured as much sexual crimes as I have.

and this has affected my womanhood, physicality, and overall health as you can imagine.

The worst part of all is that the family who raised me are involved in this crime.
they probably made a huge profit off my suffering as using me as a slave and When I have made inquiry to try getting help from Police in the states and my home country, they treated me like I was a nutjob.
Not only these sadistic a**holes have no remorse ruining an innocent woman's life who has not done anything negative to them other than not giving out sexual attention, they still continue to affect my life negatively by making fun of me using very creative but subtle methods and my daily life is also filled with things they perceive as negative triggers which they believe would traumatize me.

The sad part is any women I have called that are involved in woman's organizations are not helpful at all but are sadistic themselves only inwardly.

It seems like everybody is in for the money. but they are doing everything they can do to Drive me nuts and make me feel miserable on daily basis.

My computers I have owned have been monitored and it is still being hacked when my sister plugged USB drive with hacking device into my cheap lab-top that I barely acquired.

I would like to think of myself as someone who could make some amazing contribution to the humanity and the scientific advancement if I was simply left along instead of being tortured by them.

But what aggravates me the most is the fact that they tortured me and treated me worse than a dog or pet for ten years and I was not compensated a dime for it.

They systematically tried deleting all evidences by using drugs, medication and organized crimes to avoid prosecution.

I watch news articles about how our planet is dying due to man-made and natural disasters throughout the world and Even though a person like myself can dedicate my personal time trying to come up with solutions or Cure for all, I have absolutely no motivation at all.

Because I can't think of many human beings that I'd like to save.

I wonder if other aspies feel similar sentiment about human population as me.

Because its not that aspies have "bad" social skills or "no" social skills, it's just that they are often being excluded and bullied by the society.

and if their experience with people and society is negative one, I can't imagine any aspies spending their precious time trying to save the planet and human lives even though they have skills and probably talents to do so.

I'm very sorry that you had to go through all that stuff. If you ever want to talk in more depth about it, you can also talk to me about it

Yeah, I don't really care about people (other than my friends). Well, I won't treat a neutral person bad, but if I hear that millions have died, I won't feel anything bad. Sure I wish it wouldn't occur, but I just don't really care. Whereas if a single animal is hurt, I can cry This is probably because I have been bullied my whole life, so I don't really care. Mix that with aspy, and well yeah.

I hope things can get better for you somehow.

I don't have a positive view of humanity either, its a common feeling felt here I think. Since the world is made for average things, people etc its not designed for aspies in mind. *big internet hug*

There is actually a documented phenomenon that says people are more likely to feel empathy toward an individual than toward a mass of victims. It's why stories about a sweet little girl getting kidnapped or a kindly grandfather getting hit by a drunk driver tend to produce a greater emotional response than one about genocide or famine. I think it's because a multitude is faceless whereas an individual is seen in terms of their potential or past achievements, rendering them more accessible.

Hmmm, is that so. I get what you mean. But even when there is a face, I don't care. Only if I know the person - it's weird. Probably because I have been bullied most of my life - maybe that's why.

I do feel similarly, in that hearing about tragedies and kidnappings, murders, all that, don't really affect me much - not immediately, anyway. I've picked up the habit of imagining myself experiencing the tragedy in question from a victim's perspective, and it always leaves me chilled and disturbed that anyone could put someone through such things. But unless I do that, it is easy to depersonalize it. It's not the person or their story, as much as it's the thought that someone would force another to experience extreme pain, or trauma, or crushing despair, that gets to me.

Just saying that you mixed up the quoting. I said the smaller lot. I think I fixed it, and got rid of the bigger lot :S

People are jerks who like to inflict pain. They are just psycho.

"When one man dies it is a tragedy, when thousands die it's statistics." - Joseph Stalin

Stalin was an a**hole. Ask a Ukrainian, they'll back me up on that.

I am sorry that TC has had to go through something so utterly heinous. Few things can compare to being afraid of the people who are supposed to love and support you.

Enroll in a Krav Maga course.

Developed for the Israeli army which needed a quickly learnable way to fight, Krav Maga quickly teaches how to defend yourself. As you progress, you will learn to defend yourself against multiple assailants and attacks with weapons.

A basic working of Krav can be had in a month or so.

Sweet Pea hugs

I have to sympathize on what you had to go through. The family that treated you like a slave than a human being because they deprived you of your dignity and womanhood. I hope you turn to other relatives and people who you can actually trust, I hope your family is going to wish they hadn't deprived you of your sanity and be tried of their crimes.

We're all here on Wrong Planet if you need to talk to one of us.