Moods graduating through the day?

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Ok so for about a week during the holidays I had a strong interest, it was always strong in my head and then with coming back to school? Bang! It went away. I found myself this morning enjoying reading VDT (my recent interest is back in the chronicles of narnia like when I was little) and then I went to school felt nothing all day- been frustrated because I don't want to do anything and then at around eight o'clock at night is is starting to become stronger and take over my mind a lot more than it was before and it did this last night too.
I can't concentrate on reading because the interest is so strong in my head at that time and then I can't fall asleep if I don't read!
But even when I get my bout of interest I find that it's not an active need to do something it's just dozens of related facts whirring around in my head, I get the rush of adrenaline but I still feel kind of grudging when I listen to soundtracks from the films or think about writing or drawing,like something I know I should have done a long time ago and never did.
I appear to have severe depression- acording to the tests online- and I have big emotional scars regarding school. Is it because of going back to school? Ive also been told bu my psychologist that I focus too much on only my special interest- something I never used to do- and it's not healthy and I have to try and do other things but its really hard! I don't want to do other things when I'm feeling really down during the day and at night I get do overwhelmed that I can't even think of anything else for more than a second! What should be done?

Issues with motivation and anhedonia (a lack of pleasure in activities that once brought pleasure) are symptomatic of depression; those online results may have been correct in this. Perhaps, and this is mere speculation on my part, the increasing intensity of your special interests may be a defensive mechanism to alleviate some of your depressive symptoms. If this is true, then it would prove highly beneficial to you to treat your depression. Increased physical activity, healthy eating, humor exposure, and medication, especially natural ones such as St. John's Wart and SAMe, can help with this.

You may also be suffering from some degree of psychological burnout due to accumulated stress. It appears that many people on the autistic spectrum are prone to this. Rest and relaxation appears to be the best treatment for this, though I dare to venture that the above treatments for depression may also aide in recovery from burnout.

In any instance, I wish you the utmost happiness, health, and serenity.

Pixie, if your doctor can't offer anything that helps, maybe mindfulness meditation - practiced over a number of weeks, can help you even out that roller coaster ride of ups and downs. It sounds to me like you have been quite beaten up with this experience. John Kabat-Zinn is a good one to check on You Tube if you are interested. It is just something I can think of to suggest. I feel very bad for what you are going through as it can't be comfortable at all. I hope things settle down for you soon and that you feel better. LM