"IT" BAD DAY (My struggle with Asperger's)

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It's like maple syrup. It takes over 100 gallons of sap to produce just a pint of syrup. Sometimes I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. It seems like my whole life has always been that way...always dead-ending. One of the truest things anybody has ever said about me is "he's never done much to help the world, but there again...he's never caused any problems either." And that is at the top of the positive things. IT'S NOT FAIR! How is it that so many other people seem to sit at their oil wells in lounge chairs, occasionally pumping with their pinkies, and having all of Earth's riches just GUSH IN for them in mere minutes...while for me, as I STAND all day pumping and working myself into delirium and exhaustion, I'm lucky if I end up at the end of the month with but a spoonful of oil!< wth?! I end up with far more sweat per hour than I do in oil in a month...assuming I don't get the Big Boss walking up and patronizingly put his arm around my neck, saying "but seriously"...and then I piss myself off by saying to myself "Some people have it, and some people don't. And YOU don't." Why am I the Chevette on the Autobahn? Why do others get to tell me I'm too skinny or I'm too fat or I'm too slow or or my hair is a mess or I'm going about doing things all wrong; yet when the tables are turned and I've got MY moment to shine and take a lick at critiquing someone even in the gentlest of ways I DARE to, all hell breaks loose on me? Why am I 50+ and still a virgin? Why don't people help those of us with disabilities instead of tread on us? "It is what it is," right?
Lorna Wing, thank you for giving me an identity, I mean that. Dr. XXX, Dr. XXX, Dr. XXX, thank you for confirming it, and I mean that. At home, on the playground, in the classroom, at the party, or at work...
Dr. Hans Asperger, I love you. Well, sometimes I hate you, but those times are few and far between. The epic of the autism spectrum, ah yes!

You may be working some misconceptions. One is that many other people are rich and have to work very little. Actually only a tiny fraction of humanity is like that. And compared to a large mass of humanity you are not that badly off. That you are able to work and provide for yourself is an accomplishment of itself with Autism. Also,realistically, very few do anything to help the world, except in very small ways. Things like: take in a animal from the shelter, donate something to a honestly good cause, volunteer a little time to help a charity. If it is important to you, you may find you are able to do something like that.