I want to go home

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I moved away from my hometown a few months ago, and the difference has been amazing. Even though I am no longer accepted as part of the Brisbane Lions community due to my views on leaving players, Brisbane is still home.

That being said, a friend from my hometown has a ball going on and I volunteered to help. So I came back to my hometown for the weekend. UGH. Driving back through the "city" that's outside of my hometown, I was suddenly hit with the first stages of a panic attack. No one is happy to see me now that I'm home (Mum and Dad don't come back until Sunday) and I feel like I'm no longer a part of my family.

Sunday evening when I drive home can not come soon enough. To add to my anxiety, I'm worried about my cats. I know they have enough food and water to last them, but I still worry about them. What if something happens while I'm gone? If it weren't for the fact I promised my Mum I'd stay until Sunday after dinner I'd be outta here ASAP. I'm so upset right now. I want to go home.

If its a short drive, maybe you could drive home take care of the cats and then come back to see your parents?

Times change. Stay strong. You'll be home again soon

Yeah, that is too far. Your cats will be fine though. Even experts say its ok to leave cats alone for a few days with food and water.

Perhaps you could make the time pass quicker by going out somewhere. Maybe a movie and some favorite stores.

It just got worse.

My brother is drunk.

And he's upsetting my sister.

And it's my fault again.

I can't stay here until Sunday. There is no f***ing way.

My Mum wants to see me before I go. I can't do it. I'll stop by quickly next weekend (sister has her dance thing) so I'll see her then. But then I have to explain to Mum why I'm going, and she's on her birthday holiday and I don't want to ruin it for her.

This is bull.

Hmmm.. experts also say its ok to leave grown siblings alone for a few days as long as you fill their food and water bowls.

But seriously, it sounds like you have a good relationship with your Mom. Maybe its ok to just let her know it was a mental health thing for you. Getting away from noise/disruption is important. I know its not easy with conflicting desires. Wanting to make your Mom happy and keeping yourself sane.