Can I just finally give up?

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I'm tired. I am not connecting with anyone. Everything I do feels superficial. My therapist decided she wasn't right for me, and I don't feel like finding another one. Everything people says feels superficial, like they are just expecting me to magically cheer myself up. I am just drifting. Trying to obsess about something new just leads to boredom and disappointment. I feel like I'm burning up, oddly every evening. Can I just give up for a while? I'm tired of trying to succeed. I can't say anything to anyone. They just throw everything back at me in ways that just makes me feel worse. So many expectations, and I don't feel like I want any of it. I only really miss talking to one person.

Your hair is a mess.

I know, I need to cut it badly. I keep saying I will but I like to bleach it when I cut it and I've not ordered my bleaching kit yet.

Life is f*****g s**t mate.

I don't know what else to say.

You know the script.

You may take a break but you can't give up. The Asperger's community needs you. You need to teach the world about Asperger's so we can be better understood and accepted.

I know how you feel because sometimes I just want to give up, too. It's very tiring, going around in circles and accomplishing nothing. I really feel I just don't fit in anywhere. Always the outsider. At least we have each other on WP to shed light on that subject, eh?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-16_8FrHvKo "I'm tired of trying to figure things out, and I'm tired of being so strong."

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Last edited by delaSHANE on 22 Feb 2014, 10:42 pm, edited 1 time in total.

It's a matter of finding the right person to relate to. Good luck.

I appear to have severe psychological side effects relating to the prednisone I am taking for crohn's disease. 40mg of the stuff isn't exactly a low dose. It does make me feel fantastic at first, but I am crashing off of it every day. Makes my stimulant seem pretty mild. I probably need to think about spreading the dosage over the day in stead of all in the morning. I also filled an abilify increase, I was waiting because I had plenty of the lowest dose, but I guess its covered under insurance and it is necessary.

Feeling perfectly normal this morning. Might end up crashing yet again to some very uncomfortable, unpleasant, and not very nice thinking though. I thought I could at least control them, but I guess not. I start losing my sense of identity after a while. Bipolar depression is no fun at all. Especially when dealing with various medications.

I would say I would try and keep my hopes up, but I can't really make promises like that. I have stability issues. Hoping I can change things for the better though. I am one of the few cases where proper medication is a requirement.