While I wallow here and be miserable in my failureness, I want to bring up some of the unbreakable chains on my life. They are pissing me off right now and I am bent out of shape at the moment. So this is my stupid whiny rant, sort of..
I hate these about myself:
1 - I am a horrible communicator.
I can't express myself well while speaking, and I am at minimum doubly bad when writing. I am excellent at being confusing, and just as wonderful at disgusting and offending people and I don't even want to, it's just that I suck at communicating and I am just a disgusting person also.
2 - I am uncool and politically incorrect, and have rare marginal minority views, even on WP as far as I know.
I'm an alien freak, and I offend others' views and boil their blood upon sight. I am a magnet for mockery hate and exclusion.
3 - I don't fit in anywhere.
I don't feel I fit in here. I still feel like I'll piss people off left and right as soon as I open up. There is nowhere that I belong.
4 - I am great at offending people.
I already mentioned this. So much of what I am composed of, most people can't stand. I have to sneak on my toes in the shadows and not say anything as I will immediately start causing damage as soon as I am noticed.
5 - I don't know of anyone with a kindred mind.
I don't know anyone like myself, or someone I can relate to who thinks I am okay being the freak that I am. And how can I make friends when all I do is offend others and shoo them away and rile their ire with my stupidity and disgustingness? I am boring and disgusting.
I usually stay quiet and keep to myself because of these. I need to stay shut up. I am such an abomination.
Time to go back to hiding alone in my borrow because I am horrible to humans.
06 Apr 2014, 2:03 pm
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