Basically yesterday an event happened to me that really got me peeded off and nearly beat up, I would normally just type what happened up but I've decided it would just be easier to just copy up a section my Journal entry from yesterday that basically explains what happened.
( Names have been changed to protect identity )
I was walking down the dingle road with Lenard H, Koby D and Ethan Atkinson, now Ethan Atkinson decided that it would be funny to just suddenly throw my water bottle
down the dingle unprovoked after promising not to do anything with it, I got it back and wanted him to buy me another one, since he lost the lid, he refused so then
I grabbed his Fanta and chucked it down the hill, which then prompted him to push me towards the ground, Lenard and Koby I could hear laughing, they obviously had no idea how f*****g p****d of I was at the time, ( and still am now ) Lenard broke us up, I then walked into my House and got so p****d of I punched a wall, my knuckles then bled a bit but thats it.
Still Ethan Atkinson has no f*****g idea in this world how much stuff like this affects me, stuff like this is what prompted me to devise up
a plan and nearly attempt to go and kill Ollie Stevenson and Kerry Hart, alot of people in the chat found it funny, well f**k them, they obviously was on Ethan Atkinson side as they seemed to respect C***s like him more for some reason, I'll never know, like Shane S said to him '' Nice one Ethan '' praising him for hurting me, well f**k them all, all who gone against me for no apparent reason, they were a select few like Damion and Samson B who sided with me, though not publicly, still just proves how social hierarchy works, with the absolute d***s at the top, and the honest working peoples at the bottom.
Ethan Atkinson seemed to have apologised to me on private chat, saying he did it out of anger and will even buy me a new water bottle as goodwill, still not sure to believe him or not, he seems the type to just make up s**t like Brant Forest to get out of arguments.
Ok basically in this the chat is this Facebook Chat I'm in composed of me and most of my friends, Ollie and Kerry basically did something similar to me nearly 2 years ago that got my conscious to near breaking point and was quite close to attempting to kill them, even if it meant me getting hurt, Brant is someone who is similar to Ethan in a way, I've had skirmishes with this kid in the past but nothing like a fight, he just leaves me alone now since he realises I can pack a good fight when prompted in self defense, Ethan however had the advantage of being a lot taller and stronger than most kids, which is why he was able to get me down so easily.
But what really made me angry is that no one even gone against him in any way, its been one day since the incident and everyone seems to be cool with him, I just don't get it, if someone like him that is liked by everyone does something like this no one cares, but I bet if I did it none of them would speak to me again, it boggles my mind how this works, but it does.
Anyway he said because of some personal family issues he's had some underlying anger that he lashed out on me, but I just don't believe that at all, he was in a joking manner laughing before, in the middle and after the event happened, I think he's trying to get some sympathy of me to make me feel bad or something to pleasure his sick desires, I don't know, anyway my friends said I was being ridiculous by the way I was acting, well how about the way ETHAN WAS ACTING?! Why the hell does anyone not give a crap about that?! That he hurt and basically stole something of someone that had not done anything to him, I don't get it, I spent a pound on that drink and they all said it was only a pound, well I don't care it was still money.
I'm just wondering what should I do? Should I forgive and move on? Or hold my preferable grudge and take my desired revenge on him soon into the future?
12 Apr 2014, 7:25 pm
