Having one of those ultra-uncoordinated weeks

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I hate these. Every simple thing takes extra-extra concentration not to mess it up. It must be biological, because I get these periods of increased clumsiness every so often, and I feel totally normal otherwise. But it brings a depression because E V E R Y T H I N G is so f---ing hard to do! Last night, I just came home after work and decided to stay indoors all evening -- even though I wanted to go outdoors and walk -- simply because I'm so uncoordinated right now, that I deem myself a danger to myself and my environment. It's so frustrating -- I feel like I go into "invalid" mode every couple months.

I haven't been giving myself much solitude within the last month, so maybe that's part of it. I haven't spent a quiet evening at home for several weeks. I enjoy going out, but it never ceases to wear me out.

Ick. I have days like that, but never weeks. I hope you get your coordination back soon!

I think I know what it is now. I've been forgetting to give myself "recharge-from-society" alone time, and now it's built up. So, I'm staying home for the third evening in a row, watching TV, playing video games and the piano, and I'm accepting it as normal-for-me, rather than feeling socially inadequate. I'm fine now -- just hadn't shut out the world enough, and it got to me. Maybe I should call myself Odo, from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, because I need to return to my (socially) amorphous state every day or so in order to keep functioning. That trait of his is so metaphorical!