how do i break this abuse cycle

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My family is abusive to me and they use psyctropics to control me. they are nice to me only when they
think i take it. Heres is the cycle. 1 i am at home i try to come off this junk that ruining my health and my mind. 2 i started to heal. 3 they get really nasty at me at hit and threated me. they then lie to the police and say i did something and im mentally ill, both off wich are false. i get thrown in a mental ward toward the end im so desperserate to come home i have to, state housin can add months or years to your stay time i cant affford. 4 by the time im home the drugs have mad me so sick and done so much damage i have to get off them asap. 5 repeat.

i can my mind and health have severly detereriated in the last year. i cant afford to keep going through
this

i should point out the drugs have ruined my ability to think, maybe for ever.

Hello,

I am so sorry for your pain. Is there any way to get away from those abusive @ssholes?

It is worth it to live alone and be poor but at least have a more normal existence, I love my family, but I need to live alone!

I have thought about trying some of the mood controlling drugs to see if they level me out, but from reading posts like yours I have second thoughts.

Good luck,
MY mantra has always been:

Nobody ever promised you a rose garden,

And this too will pass.



When things got rough over here in Baghdad, I would say those two lines hundreds of times.


Things change, you just have to have patience and perseverance.


crazedchef

its tough
i almost did once, went to this house of this guy i just met out one those places, his girlfriend wanted me out.
cant drive anymore so i cant high tail it out of here. plus not being able to think straight is a hinderance plus not being able to feel make feeling stuff fear or urgency or hate impossible. worse i got this court order for me to show up at this worthless day program. if i dont show up for a couple days they put police order out on me to show for pscyh eval wich you always fail. that put me back in years and the drugs would end my existance, either kill me outright, or simply destroy whats left of my consciencenes, and leave me as walking vegetable.

my general hope is for my social worker to get me some dd housing\


but i dont how to handle or what to do should some kind of incident occur.

btw my local police at this point may think im some kinda of nutjob so they may not help

Damn! You are living my nightmares. Any way that you can keep from swallowing the drugs without getting caught? How old are you? You might be able to petition through the ACLU in order to get protection from this kind of abuse. I doubt that local legal aid would help you. There are ways to just disappear though - I know a lot of kids who live on the streets here - it ain't a perfect life, but maybe you can keep your own mind.

one comes in a liquid so i really cant not drink it, ill have taper when iam home,
the others come in pill form so they go drown as often as possible. my mom is suspcipicious, nearly got
caught chucking them at home. since i got a blood level on the one i cant just stop- withdrawal syndrome. age 25 though i feel like 21 or 15 or 12 depending on the day junk kinda caused me to to regress in term maturity.


is going to the local police and telling them whats reallly been going on a good idea?

If your police really think you have psychotic problems you would have to get hard proof before going to them or it will just be another part of the cycle. I don't see how it is even possible to do in your situation.
Do you have, or are you aloud/able to to get a job of any kind)? if you can do that you could possibly save up enough money for an apartment. or if you have friends will they let you stay with them(someone who WON'T kick you out)? you said you tried that once before, is there anything stopping you from trying again?

This probably doesn't help you, but I do hope things improve for you soon.

Sorry Hyperion,

I have no answers for you because the damn police and courts are involved. Once those @ssholes get involved things become much more complicated.

Did you do something to get this ill will against you?

Do you have rage issues?

Why would they give your family carte blanche authority over your affairs?

I do not understand your situation since I have never been in trouble that I could not claw my way out of, even if it took decades (yes, I have had some serious issues including trouble witht the law)

Keep on keeping on, you at least have made a step in the right direction by coming here.

One thing you should do: keep a diary of all the events that happen, this way you will have documentation to show the courts.

Good Luck with your troubles,

crazedchef

Get whatever you can, and run away from them, if nothing else can be done.

How did all this start?

Unless you have been declared legally incompetent by the courts, this sort of long term drugging you against your will or holding you against your will is ILLEGAL.

I'd go to the cops with that, and get them in so much hot water so fast that their heads would spin. With any luck, they end up in jail and you end up with their stuff as payment for damages.

But I'm vindictive that way.