WhiteWidow wrote:
Feel a woman again. I had a very short three day stint four years ago when I lucked out by meeting a really hot girl off plentyoffish. I pleased her but she never pleased me if you know what I mean.
I live on disability which means I can only make 800 extra per month but if I lost my job again i would have an extremely hard time getting disability back so I don't see the point in trying to get a full time job.
Women obviously don't want me because of this. On top of this I am 180 lbs at 5"10' but I was 140 two years ago so now women barely look at me. They use to literally yell out their truck at me. I was talking to some girl through email recently and when she found out I live on disability for autism the emails stopped.
I argue with people all day on the Internet about autism and marijuana's benefits.
Nobody wants me. I should just accept all of this. Please don't tell me to see a counsellor etc. I am applying for my MMJ card currently and that helped me lose weight before (substitute for junk food and depression)
If the only thing that you find worth mentioning is the fact that she did nothing to "please" you perhaps you shouldn't be out seeking someone anyway. Human beings aren't expendable tools that exist for your sexuality and self-esteem.

Anyways, I think you'll find most women are very willing to overlook such things. My sister's boyfriend is similarly disabled (not autism, the situation) and she loves him anyway - he was that way when they met. It's the fact that he's confident in who he is and works every day to better himself despite his shortcomings.
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