I Need To Leave For Awhile

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I don't know when I'll be back. I thought I had made a friend here, one that I confided in and was beginning to trust and really enjoy being around. It turns out that I was wrong and the friendship came to an end last night with no really good reason other than they had done this before to others because of not having any feelings (possibly alexithymia). This was actually the third friendship I had made with an Aspie that ended pretty much like this one. I can't put myself in this situation anymore - friendships with people who only end up hurting me in the end. The sad thing about this is that this person didn't even seem to want to figure out why they do this - going from one person to the next forming these "friendships" and knowing the whole time they will be ending the friendship in the same manner in which I was put through last night. I didn't even see it coming - I was blindsided. And the funny thing is, actually not funny but sad, is that they get the good memories they have of our friendship because they told me that "after knowing a person I don't need to have them around anymore because it is like they never leave and they are always with me in my mind". This person will never have to endure the pain they have caused me or to others they do this to because they have no feelings of regret or missing the person. They will never understand how much they have hurt me because they have no feelings of empathy either. I can't go through this anymore especially because of my past of not being able to trust others - mainly men. If I do come back, it will not be to try and form anymore friendships with anyone on this site, which is actually the reason for coming here in the first place, isn't it? Maybe that's where I'm going wrong.

Yep...people can be a trip at times.

I wish you had more satisfactory relationships.

Hugs

Sorry you went through that, Angela. Having had a similar experience recently, I can definitely relate. Hope you feel better soon.

I quit making friends on here after one friendship failure with someone on here a few years back. I used to have other friends but they always came and went. Now I just read and reply. Sometimes it's nothing personal when people disappear. They sometimes get busy and go online less or not at all. Just as long as they are still on my Facebook, I see I didn't scare them off and they are just busy with their lives. If I am friends with someone on a forum and they all of a sudden go "I am busy now so I won't be able to talk much anymore" and bam they are gone. Just as long as I don't see them doing much activity on the forum, I do believe them than thinking they were just saying that to be polite and then ignore me. Sometimes people really do mean what they say when they go "they are busy."

Ugh. As an alexithymic myself I can say that not every alexithymic devalues friendship in this way. Part of friendship holds ethical and psychological and even functional facets, and those an alexithymic can understand. It may not be emotionally based, but this person could have ethically decided that sidelining people who have expended effort on them is not the correct course of action.
I guess my point is not to give it up completely. Many autistics are perfectly capable of emotional attachments and even for those of us who aren't, friendship is still possible, just atypically.
I like having some neurotypical perspective around here to stop people turning into complete autism isolated fanatics with no other perspective.

I'm better now. I've deleted all emails, pictures and recordings just like it never happened. Grumpy Cat is back jack!

I heard this in a TV show I was watching :

"YOU are the CEO of your life. You have the power to demote, promote and fire people at will. "

Like Trump says - YOU'RE FIRED!

On with life........