I know how you feeling, over six years ago, I got a shock of my life when my mom got cancer, she was in the hospital for something else, my aunt was fighting for her life, she had breast cancer & alot of other health problems, my other aunt by marriage, she was in the worse shape too & my grandmother was in the hospital having surgery, I loss three of them, it was the worst year of my life. I'm SLOWLY getting my life back.
I hope everything is better today.