I HATE My Life!!

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I HATE my life sooooo much! I want to die, I don't want feel alone anymore & have nobody to talk to. I don't want to be 70 & be all alone & still hating myself. I think this is the best if I died. My family don't understand me, they maybe listening to me, but they are refusing to believe me. My sister is the worse of all of them, I'm soooooo tired of dealing with her. Why do I have to believe her health problems (she has Bipolar, ADHD, Asthma & really bad migraines)? And she don't have to believe me. I know she can be in the worse shape too, but she is acting like she is more important than me. I don't know alot about ADHD & Bipolar, but I know some of Bipolar, I get it, she can be fragile, I can be fragile too. It seems like almost everything can be about her, what about me, I have Cerebral Pasly, bad Asperger & Psoriasis (I have psoriasis for almost 41 years & all over my body) my sister have no idea what it been like for me all my life, when I was in school, I was so hard on myself, blaming myself for things, feeling like I wasn't worth living, I tried hurting myself, I wanted to cut my wrists, I was scratching until I was bleeding so badly & more bad stuff. I cannot take living anymore, I want to die. People will move on without me & get over it, that what my grandmother told me about losing my mom (her daughter), some people can act like she was never born.

I HATE my life sooooo much! I want to die, I don't want feel alone anymore & have nobody to talk to. I don't want to be 70 & be all alone & still hating myself. I think this is the best if I died. My family don't understand me, they maybe listening to me, but they are refusing to believe me. My sister is the worse of all of them, I'm soooooo tired of dealing with her. Why do I have to believe her health problems (she has Bipolar, ADHD, Asthma & really bad migraines)? And she don't have to believe me. I know she can be in the worse shape too, but she is acting like she is more important than me. I don't know alot about ADHD & Bipolar, but I know some of Bipolar, I get it, she can be fragile, I can be fragile too. It seems like almost everything can be about her, what about me, I have Cerebral Pasly, bad Asperger & Psoriasis (I have psoriasis for almost 41 years & all over my body) my sister have no idea what it been like for me all my life, when I was in school, I was so hard on myself, blaming myself for things, feeling like I wasn't worth living, I tried hurting myself, I wanted to cut my wrists, I was scratching until I was bleeding so badly & more bad stuff. I cannot take living anymore, I want to die. People will move on without me & get over it, that what my grandmother told me about losing my mom (her daughter), some people can act like she was never born.



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get a counselor. if you can't afford one, get a support group. but do not tell a mandated reporter "I want to die". they will send you to 5150. some of the precious little counselors that interacted with me acted totally obsessed with mandated reporter duties. one of them asked me 3x, within one hour, mandated reporter questions. another one phone called me, for no functional reason. asked how I was. then asked if I was "safe". the nerve of those little idiots. talk about big egos. then another one asked how I was. answered "depressed." (and I had already disclosed, in writing, clinical depression). and then the little moron had the nerve to ask a mandated reporter question. seriously? she was so inexperienced vocationally and chronologically young. but she acted wise and "holier than thou."