I Have always wanted a better life

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From sixth grade onward, I wanted to be popular. I wanted to awesome at sports, I wanted to perform at festivals, I wanted lots of friends to hang out with, etc.

However, basically, I was an uncool dork, but kept begging and pleading the other kids to think I was cool, and they gave in like 50% of the time, even though I did not go to the mall with friends at all until twelfth grade, I did lots of boring things with my family, I played video games with my sister and had to endure her endless trying to help me even though I wanted to progress in the games on my own, and I always wound up in the audience at parades, festivals, etc., until twelfth grade, when an aspie friend of mine let me ride in his firetruck with him in a Santa Parade two towns away from me.

Now for my future outlook. I want to go into accounting or computers, and whenever I go to my Mom for advice, she keeps suggesting low-level administrative jobs such as Bookkeeper, Computer Operator, Data Entry. The problem with this, however, is that ever since I have joined this forum, I read about how most aspies are stuck in entry-level jobs, and stuck with entry-level pay. However, unlike most of you, (and I'm not trying to bash or offend anyone here, that is not the purpose of this post) if I do get stuck at entry-level, I will not allow it. I tend to get impatient whenever something doesn't go my way (and in Middle School, I used to turn into a screaming banshee whenever one little thing seemed off to me).

The purpose of this post was to unload all the stuff that was on my mind. No whiny tone was intended. In fact, if any of you saw me talking about all this stuff in real life, you would see me being as calm and adult as possible.

I've always thought the same.
I want to perform good at life.
I would hate to be stuck at an entry-level job for longer then 2 years.

I cant imagine any human on Earth who doesnt want a better life

well you can't give up wanting-but you gotta work like a dog until you get this
I always say (and I beleive this) Winners are just losers who got up and gave it justone more try

Your mom likely doesn't know of other jobs that you would be good at. I find that I don't know what happens at most jobs. My oldest told me that he wanted to be an artist, I don't remember exactly when. I was homeschooling him and I could not think of how he could be an artist and not starve, so I told him, sure, he could be an artist, but he needed to learn a trade to feed himself with. I'm so sorry I did that because he filled with despair that he could never do what he wanted to do. To shorten the story, he is an artist at an online computer game company and making fine money. A younger brother does something I think is programming (what does scripting mean?) at another video game company. And the youngest brother eats banana slugs in the rain forest for the Air Force.
I'm sure your mom loves you and is doing the best she can. Honor her by listening as best you can. What she might be trying to tell you is that everybody has to start at the bottom.

I fail to see what's so awful about working in bookkeeping until you get a degree in accounting. Do not compare yourself to others nor to someone else's version of "success." Success is finding a job that suits you and pays your bills and makes you happy.

I was stuck in a low-level accounting job for years. It wasn't much but I was happy hiding in my cubicle. Everyone else convinced me to take a job at a huge corporation. ("You can do so much more!") I was to start at the bottom (I was kinda there) but on the path to making almost double my old salary. The result? It was the worst experience of my life. Corporations have capital to pay people, but the people in said corporations are merciless to an aspie guy. Heck, I'm struggling to overcome the memories of the experience a year after the fact. Now I'm back at my old company on a computer night shift and loving it. Working alone is awesome. I don't have to hear idiots discuss and laugh my AS traits, and I'm happy to be as aspie as I wanna be.

I've always wanted a better life as well.

But I've figured out in my wonderful noggin' of mine, that if you don't f**k up in your life, you won't learn from any mistakes, and if you ever f**k up just once, all this pain and misery will be new to you.

But if you (like me) have a s**t life and f**k up at every corner, then you learn from your mistakes, hence you know what's coming which builds your confidence up.

Well, that's what I think anyway.

What makes you think you don't have one?

Sometimes, you have to look on the real side of life.