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Hi,

Since the past few weeks, I've been feeling out of sorts. I can't get myself to give a damn about anything. Work is a chore. Life is a chore. I've lost my motivation to do pretty much anything. Nothing extrinsic has changed, AFAIK. But everything seems so meaningless. I can seem to get no pleasure out of my life, and I feel like I'm on a downward spiral.

There's this weird sadness / melancholy enveloping my mental state. And I just don't feel like going on anymore, nothing exciting is happening (objectively there's a lot of exciting things going on, I just ain't feeling it).

I don't know what to do, can't get an appointment with my doc soon enough either, and I'm feeling so bored with life and sad I wanna out myself.

Hi,

First off, are you eating okay? Sometimes, us Aspies are prone to depression if our nutritional needs aren't being met.

Are you getting enough exercise? Can you go for a walk and get your heart pumping a little harder? Sometimes the doldrums set in when we're not moving.

I hope your mood passes soon.

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I haven't made any changes to my diet in the recent past, if anything I've started eating less junk recently. Exercise is something I don't usually do, but I will try it out.

I've got plenty of work related stresses recently, no changes in diet health or sleep though. Thought processes, yes, I seem to be having more negativity and self-hate in my thoughts.

Also I was recently put on risperidone, and tried coming off it by reducing the dose from 1mg to .5mg, and the blues started around that time, but I'm not sure there's a cause effect relationship.

Also, btw, I'm just turning 21.

I agree with Chronos. If you can't get an appointment very soon to talk to this prescriber, possibly they'd be willing to talk with you a few minutes on the phone.

Your symptoms sound exactly like major depression to me. Do not ignore it. Maybe it will go away on its own, but maybe you will just get worse and worse till you get to the point where you can't help yourself at all, can't even post on a forum. Depression is a very serious illness. If you can't get seen fairly soon (a couple weeks) at one clinic or doctor, try another, and tell them you're really having a problem with this.

I don't know where you work, but sometimes seeing someone in the Employee Assistance office (which should be confidential) is an acceptable stop-gap while you are waiting for a medical appointment. Or if you are in university, they may have a counseling center that can similarly help you short term while waiting.

Yep sounds like you have some sort of withdrawl.

I have taken Risperdal before and many other atypical antipsychotics and my experience with Risperdal was never good. I was on it when I was 20 and again at age 33. The latter time it made me wet the bed quite often so I switched to Abilify which is much better as it has alot fewer side effects. It's hard to say if it was the decrease in dosage that has you feeling out of sorts but sounds like a possible culprit of the sudden fluctuation in mood. What other medications are you on?