hi. relating here. my daughter's father left when she was a year ago. birth itself can be done with anesthetics, if u are afraid. its a hard work, and important milestone, but not as boogey as one might think. wont give u health rants, u got docs for it. wont give u "all will be good". there is a hard road ahead. but if u love ur child, u will be able to raise them. although, u will need to adapt to splitting. it can happen, it can be countered with training. basicly, i am using extra streams of mind i've got to channel love and prevent splitting. i had to have learned it the hard way, on a frontline, so to speak. u have time to train. remember all the times u had mixed, different emotions. force that state. learn to rage and love at a same time, it can be done. and the more streams u have, the easier it will be to emotionally provide for the child. also mind, that having that mechanism brings its own danger, and u need to control it well. again, u have time to develop it in a safer and more controlled manner than i had. wish u success.
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