I can't think of any ways that I can meet people. I have looked thru the events section of FB multiple times to see if anything is happening and nothing appeals to me. There is someone who I had hung out with a few times recently. She's someone I know from my elementary days. I had asked her and a friend of hers if they wanted to go to a haunted house next weekend. They said that that wouldn't work, and we sort of talked about going out to eat somewhere. It got to the point where the only thing I could do is push the issue but I didn't feel comfortable doing that, and rightfully so because no one else made an effort to plan something. This person has also gone out with friends of hers without inviting me. I had also asked another friend, and he said that he was gonna be busy.
To move away from the topic of wishing I had more things to do for a sec, I had heard that she has a crush on me. However, I don't feel the same way. I wanted to say that before anyone asks if I want to be more than friends with her. Since I did bring that up, I now should ask, why are the only girls that are ever interested in me the ones that I'm not interested in? Damnit, this has confused me for years!
Last friday, I had gone to see a girl I was interested in at an ice cream place that she worked at. This girl is the daughter of one of my dads friends so she's not unfamiliar with me. I tried to talk her and then I wrote down my phone number in case she ever wanted to talk and I left. Of course, she never responded.
So back to my loneliness. Yesterday, I drove around town and the more I did the more depressed I felt that I had nothing to do. No friends that I could just go hang out with on minimal notice. No one who makes my life much more interesting. Even that one guy friend I have and I haven't hung out in 2 months.
I need to find a way to get myself out into the world, so to speak. I just can't think of any ideas. My mind just runs on auto pilot all the time. It's gotten really old.